When Crickets Cry...

Zac sighed.
"Even still baby. I could have died. And no matter how bad your problem is i will always help you through it. I probably have the best momma in the world and I'm trying to live up to him.."

"But I wont get better. Im dying." He shook his head and looked around.
He was dying....

Zac sighed but nodded.
"You will die... I've died again but not from that. It isn't pleasant and when you wake back up you'll feel weird for a day or two but when you get up, the disease will be gone hun..."

Quincy frowned, pulling Zac into his lap.
"When did you die Again?"

"Before I met you babe." He nodded. He had killed himself, not knowing that he would come back to life.

Quincy frowned and held him close, pulling Gabriel into his arms too.
"My babies."

Zac leaned into Quincy, holding Gabriel close.
"Honey, it'll be alright..."

"No...Its going to be slow and painful." He shrugged with a small sigh.

"Well yes but.... it'll be okay..." He sighed.

Gabriel shook his head, standing up and running up the stairs, entering his room and locking his door.

Zac sighed, frowning after him.
"Well we had our first mother and son moment I think..." He shook his head.

Quincy laughed.
"You and Kevin are too much for me when you try to be mommy."

"What does that mean?" He pouted, resting his chin on Quincy's shoulder.

"Your both funny as hell." He chuckled, pecking Zac's lips.

"I'm not trying to be amusing..." He whined. "It's all my fault he's llike this..."

"No its not, you didnt make him sleep with all those people now did you? Its his own fault. He knows that."

"I... I didn't try to but he always thought I didn't love him... you know he still thinks it.... this is his way of dealing with it... I used to cut and he has sex.."

"Your both weird." He kissed Zac's cheek. "But I stopped you, well me and Kevin."

"Momma tried but, you're really what did it." He smiled softly. He remembered tthe exact words that had stopped him... Quicny had said "I sure wouldn't want a cutter for a lover.."

"Well...I couldnt have my baby hurting himself." He kissed Zac softly. "I gotta have my precious nice and not bleeding."

Zac was grinning softly to himself as he remembered that first night. That night that had changed his entire life... the reason he now had seven beautiful children and a loving fiance...

Quincy pressed a kiss to his nose.
"So precious..."

Zac couldn't help but giggle. He was still so in love after all this. Just like the night he'd had his first kiss...

Quincy held him tightly, peppering his face with kisses.
"Your are so perfect...Beautiful...."

Zac's self esteem had gotten better a bit. Since Quincy had hit him. He was a bit frightened at times, when Quincy got too angry but it wasn't bad. He was starting to see himself as not completely hideous, or a whore...
"And you're gorgeous, sexy..."