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The time came and went faster than any of them would have liked. Soon it was already time for Alex to start packing.

Alex sighed as he stood at the door with his things. He didn't want to leave, knowing there was a possibility he may never come back.

"Alex baby, can I drive you?" Mike asked, he didnt want Alex to go again, it was killing him.

"If you want to." Alex said. He wasn't sure if it would be better or worse for Mike to drive him.

"I want to..." Mike took one of Alex's bags and loaded it into the back before getting in the drivers side, waiting for Alex to get in before he drove to the air port.

Alex said goodbye to Alex and Sydney, then he walked out to the car with Mike.

Mike sighed as Alex got in the truck. Mike started the truck and began the drive to the air port. Getting there once again, sooner than he would have liked.

Alex couldn't take it. He let the first few tears fall.
"I don't wanna go back. He frowned.

Mike got out and went to get Alex’s things before coming around and opening Alex’s door for him but before Alex could get out he got in the truck and sat in his lap. Mike put both hands on either side of Alex’s face as his thumbs rubbed his cheeks, looking into his eyes before speaking. “You listen to me, I will do anything. I will tell you EVERYTHING about the baby, the good and the bad. I will write every day and I will be faithful to you until the day I die. I will do anything because you are the love of my life you are my life so no matter what…you promise you won’t lose hope and every day you will fight your hardest or whatever so you can come home. I don’t care how long it takes, I will be at the house waiting for you, I will never love another okay.” Mike’s eyes clouded with tears and he kissed Alex softly, pouring all the loving in the world into that kiss.

All Alex could manage in response was a nod and a tear drop.
"Okay." He croaked. "I love you."

"I love you to Alex." Mike said softly hugging him tightly, his heart breaking at the thought that he would be going home alone.

Alex was this close to collapsing to the ground, begging, pleading for them not to make him go back. He was so childish.

Mike got out of the truck and picked up some of Alex's things, going into the airport where Alex's plane was about to take off.

"I don't want to leave." Alex bawled to himself but he couldn't worry Mike anymore.

Mike grit his teeth, he sat Alex's things down before once again, running into his arms. "I don't want you to go." He whimpered.

Alex held Mike close.
"I don't want to go baby."
He looked around and saw some men he recognized from the army. They were all comforting their wives or girlfriends. They all seemed to be disgusted at Alex with another male in his arms. But he knew he wouldn't want it any other way.

Mike nuzzled his head into Alex's chest, he didn't notice the looks. "God I wish I could go with you..." He cried.

"I don't darling. You'd lose it down there. I see people die every day sweety."

Mike shivered. "Im going to lose it without you around." Mike sniffled. "And Im sorry, I know your probably hurting just as bad....." Mike looked down, he didnt like troubling his lover.

"I am hurting too. But you don't have to be sorry baby. You're allowed to be upset. I'd be offended if you weren't." Alex chuckled.

Mike smiled but the smile soon faded as the last call to board the plane was heard. "Kiss goodbye...."

Alex's own lip trembled. He bit back tears as he placed a hand on each of Mike's cheeks and kissed him deeply.
"I love you Mike. Letters every day remember." He smiled, wiping away a few tears.

"Of coarse...Want to kiss the baby?" He asked gently, rubbing his eyes.

Alex smiled, knelt down and placed a small but loving peck on his husband's enlarged stomach.

Mike's lip trembled, as he kissed Alex one more time. The plane was taking off in fifteen minutes and all passengers must be boarded in five.