I'm losing what I don't deserve

Phil just whimpered softly as tears fell down his face.

John picked him up, and ran from the room. He didnt have time to wait for an ambulance right now. His friend was dying.

Phil tried to protest but all he could do was whimper as his vision started to blur.

John busted into the hospital, his eyes wide ans teary as the doctors took Phil away from him.

A few hours later a doctor came into the waiting room and call "Mr. Cena."

John was off his feet in seconds, rushing to the doctor.
"That me! Where is he? Will he be okay? How bad is it? Can I see him?" John gushed, his eyes red rimmed and teary.

Doctor cleared his thoat "He's doing better, he'd lost a lot of blood but you got him here in time and yes you can see him, he's in room 355."

John was gone before the doctor could say more, rushing up the stairs because the elevator would take to long. He got to the room and quickly opened the door, setting eyes on his friend.

Phil laid on the bed staring at the wall his eyes still full of tears.

John made his way over, pulling up a chair and taking Phil's hand.
"Phil....Why?"

Phil bit his lip "John i screwed up." he whispered "I lost my temper and got Chris sent to the hospital and now he hates me and i can't live without him, i love him too much." he said as he started crying again.

John was silent for a moment, holding Phil's hand tightly.
"S-So, you made a mistake...Im sure with time he will forgive you and you two will be fine..." He trailed off.

Phil shook his head "It can't fixed John." he said softly "Not after this."

"Come on Phil....You two were mean to be together. You and Chris...He loves you, I know he does." He nodded to himself.

Phil bit his lip "He doesn't love he was just useing me." he said his voice lifeless.

"Yeah he was, AT FIRST! But if he didnt love you then he wouldnt care anything about you...He does love you...I can see he does."

Phil looked at John sadly "I love him so much John."

"You will get him back Phil....He cannot stay mad forever right?"
But he was Chris Jericho...He COULD stay mad for an eternity.

Phil bit his lip "Yes he can John you know that." he said softly.

"Not against you...He loves you Phil." He nodded with a smile.

Phil sighed "He hates me now John and besides he has Wade."

"Wade will be mine as soon as I get the nerve to talk to him. He does not hate you Phil...Trust me." He smiled softly.

Phil sighed as he squeezed John's hand, he wished John was right. A few days later and they finally released Phil and John was going to have Phil stay with him.

Chris was released a week later, he went back to the hotel to find all of his lovers things gone....
That night he laid in his cold bed and he cried.

Phil sighed and closed his eyes as he sat curled up on the couch as John sat near by. John hadn't aloud him to be by himself since the incident. Phil didn't open his eyes when there was a knock on the door, he just sat there rubbing the wristbands over his cuts.