Tangled Up In Me

"I-I..." He'd cheated.... He wanted to throw up. He despised himself for this...

"I always thought I was scum for what I had done to Ben, I wanted to kill Daniel for what he did to you if I ever found him and I will, make no mistake but I bet you didnt feel as cheated as I do...." He rested his head in his hands.

"I-I never meant t-to cheat..." He shook his head

"Yeah well that doesnt fix it." Chord turned away from him, his shoulders shaking violently.

Joslin covered his face. God he hated this... He felt so dirty. And it took a lot to make him feel that way...

He should feel dirty, he had just taken the boy who cared for him and his child, protected him and did everything he could for them and he hurt him...by cheating as Chord called it.

"I'm so sorry..." He didn't know what else to say.

"I know...." He stood, running his fingers through his shaggy brown locks.
"But that doesnt fix anything..."

"What does? What can I do to fix it?" He asked softly.

"It cant be fixed, if get that video, every copy GONE and I want EVERYONE of them gone." He growled softly. He was not over reacting...

"Its all off the internet... I have one copy somewhere, I don't even know where it is. Its the original. But I'll find it and burn it..."

"When you do that, then you can talk to me. Until then, stay away from me." Chord turned, his puffy red rimmed eyes hard on Joslin.
But unlike Joslin...He was not going to flip out and change but he was sure as hell hurt and this time....he would not act like it was fine.
It wasnt.

Joslin hung his head and stood, running upstairs to his bedroom. He called Zac over and together they tore apart Joslin's things until Zac finally held up a small silver DVD.
"Is this it?" He asked.
"Only one way to find out." Joslin put it in the TV and pressed play.
He shuddered as he saw his own face come on the screen, naked. He stopped it and took it out. "Yupp."
He took it and snapped it in half, then snapping the two pieces in half once more. Then again and again until he had nothing but a small pile of broken pieces in his hand. He dumped them in the trash can.
"All gone." He nodded firmly.

Quincy had come over with Zac, he had found Chord out by the pool and so they say there, their feet dangling in the water.
Quincy said nothing to Chord, just sat with him to be there just encase the boy he had become to know as a friend needed him.

Zac stroked Joslin's back as they sat on the bed together.
"I'm just as bad as Daniel." He drug a hand down his face.
"No hun...you didn't touch anyone.."
"But they got off to me....
"Still babe.."
"I cheated." He shook his head.

And to Chord he had.
Quincy had checked the site, and by now apparently Gabriel had felt bad for Angel and taken off Zac's pictures and what not.
The man had come in to find a pair if Rhett's swim trunks he left over a while ago, he stepped into the room with Zac and Joslin, not even glancing at the later as he went through Chord's drawers.

Joslin had never met his friend's husband so he gave him the once over before speaking up.
"Um.. how is he?"

"Depressed I supposed. He sure as hell aint normal. If he was he would not have me in here going through his shit for some of Rhett's trunks." His voice was gruff, he was not happy with the man for hurting his friend.

"Alright..." Joslin trailed off and laid back on the bed, curling into Zac's open arms.

Quincy pulled the boxers out and eyed his lover.
"Zac.....Just a fair warning Precious. If you have anything like this on the web tell me now."

Zac blinked at him.
"You were my only time so unless you put a video up, we're good." He smiled softly.

Quincy smiled softly, sitting on the bed and kissing Zac softly, his arms wrapping around him.
"I know Precious but im just making sure I dont need to kill anyone." He spoke in his smooth deep voice.

That voice still gave Zac the chills...
Zac smiled and nuzzled his neck.
"Nope.."

"Well then baby, if you need me for anything im out by the pool, I might call over a few friends but I dont know, they will only make Chord feel worse." He chuckled lightly.

Zac nodded with a small smile.
"I might call some over too. But alright babe." He pecked his cheek and turned back to Joslin