I Am, Gabriel Johnson

I am tough and stupid
I wonder where Angel is
I hear the thoughts rushing through my head
I see my baby's limp form
I want to see Angel
I am tough and stupid

I pretend Blaine is alive
I feel cold inside
I touch the tuft of hair on my baby's head
I worry he will never come back
I cry for the mistake I've made
I am tough and stupid

I understand I've done wrong
I say I don't care if he leaves but
I dream he will come back to me
I try to erase Gabriel's touch
I hope Angel will erase it for me
I am tough and stupid...