50 Way To Say I Love You

I can't sleep so I was up all night making this thing for my Alex. I love you Alex....We here fighting so I couldn't sleep a lick, I was up thinking, and writing and now im tired and irritated but im accomplished. Like I said I love you so very much, I hope you know that.
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1. Tender: Nothing was as tender as Riley's touch. Every time he laid hands on Lance, it was gentle and caring...not only his hands though, every kiss was a tender loving treasure.

2. Jack: Riley pressed the bottle of Jack to his lips, tipping his head and letting the hot liquid burn down his throat. His hazy gaze fell on the picture in his hand, him and Lance, so young and in love. Now because of some stupid drunk driver, Lance was no longer with him. Riley was drunk to but he thought, since a drunk diver murdered the love of his life, why not the liquor which motivated the drive be the nonexistent gun to his head?(I just made no sense at all...fail)

3. Smile: Lance treasured nothing more than the ever present smile on Riley's face, maybe thats why when Riley left, taking the bright smile with him, Lane's life held no true meaning.

4. Frown: Riley thought Lance was the most gorgeous creature on the plant, even his frown was beautiful, even so, Riley was thankful he rarely saw a frown on his lovers face when they were together.

5. Breeze: Riley took a deep breath, grinning widely as a breeze rolled by, sweeping away all his worries on the wind so all he was left with was the swelling in his heart and Lance's giddy laugh filling his ears.

6. Shatter: Lance had watched many things shatter but none of it really registered until he watched Riley's heart shatter through his eyes when he said he wanted a divorce.

7. Mistake: Lance feared after Riley knew he wasn't pregnant, he would admit this was all a mistake, he didn't want Lance anymore but his fear was washed away when Riley took him in his arms and promised a forever together.

8. Absence: Lance had never felt like he had anything missing from his life but after sharing that one night with Riley and then spending the next night alone, he felt a strange absence in his heart.

9. Hope: Riley always had hope but when he had the barrel of a shot gun to his nose, he felt hopeless until Lance ran in and took the gun away, being his savior another night.

10. Farmer: Riley had always heard that dating the daughter or son of a farmer was not worth it, and most would be right, Dustin scared him so bad, be it anyone but Lance he was fighting for, he would have pissed his pants and run away with his tail between his legs.

11. Gun: Riley had been around guns his whole life, his father had many that he used to hunt and teach Riley about but none had ever scared him like the shot gun Dustin stuck in his face every night when he was trying to sneak in to see Lance.

12. Fear: Lance had never really know true fear until his fathers gun had accidentally went off, and the bullet embedding itself into Riley's chest. He felt like he had been the one shot in the heart.

13. Tan: Riley had never really thought much of tans, he didn't really like them but he absolutely adored his lovers sun kissed skin and no, when he said sun kissed...it didn't sound right, he wanted to say...Riley kissed...yes...In Riley's head he was the only one kissing Lance ANYWHERE.

14. Glow: Lance smiled softly, it was late, he was in bed with his lover and the way the moon ghosted in from the shadows to hit Riley's pale skin....His lover glowed....Looked angelic....Lance stood and snapped a picture, showing it off to his friends as proof saying angels really exist.

15. Done: Lance had learned to never say he was done or it was over. He had never realized what Riley felt when he said that until one day when he woke up, Riley wasn't there. No, when he woke up that day, Riley wasn't anywhere

16. Family: Meeting the family was something they never went through because they shared a family but Riley would have been just fine if he could have gotten off without meeting Lance's father. No, Dustin never did like him much.

17. Wonder: Late at night, Lance looked out his window at the moon, and wondered if somewhere, Riley was thinking about him too.

18. Blush: Riley had never been someone to blush but the first time he kissed Lance and fucked up, making their teeth clank together and their noses bump, he had never been so embarrassed and his blush hadn't went away from almost two hours.

19. Memory: Lance sighed softly, Riley was gone....But it was alright, he kept Riley's memory alive in his heart, so did their child every time he smiled that crooked grin that was so much like his fathers.

20. Climax: Usually the climax was the best part of sex, the highest peek as the word suggests but with Riley, the best part of their coupling was the sweet good night kiss bestowed upon his lips by a tired, sleepy, Lance.

21. Giggle: Lance loved music but his favorite sound was not any song or instrument...It was the sound of Riley's laughter that always seemed to ring in his ears, even when the happy boy wasn't around.

22. Snore: Riley groaned, tossing once again in his bed. He just couldn't get to sleep without the sound of Lance snoring softly in his ear.

23. Tickle: Lance had always been the innocent farmers daughter and he tried to act like he wasn't, like he was totally different but when Riley had him pinned and was tickling him, the innocent laughter that filled the air assured everyone it was just a front.

24. Pout: Riley twitched, frowning at his lover before looking away, he just couldnt look at Lance. The adorable pout would get to him with those plump pink lips and puffed out cheeks...
Riley sighed in defeat, even the mental picture got to him.

25. Cough: Lance frowned deeply while his lover coughed, holding his chest. Of course Riley said he was fine but months later, looking at an x-ray that clearly showed that the cancer had spread to his lung, he wanted to cry and call Riley a liar? Why? Because he had lied, it wouldnt be okay.

26. Waddle: Riley giggled, tip toeing behind Lance, he did this often, just following his lover around the home to see im waddle with his inflated belly poking out ahead if him.

27. Curl: Lance hated his curls, that was until Riley came along and went on and on about how cute he looked with them. Now days Lance loved his curls and refused to cut then.

28. Sore: Lance was always sore after sex and it was irritating but there was nothing he would change, he loved being about to tell Riley had made love to him last night, plus he got to lay in bed all day while Riley did everything for him...Yes...Life was good.

29. Fall: Riley had never been one to just fall for some random person but Lance had not really been random. Ever since they were kids Riley had pinned over the son of his uncle and it just took him forever to work up any nerve to even stalk him....

30. Summer: Lance giggled, watching Riley dive off the dock into the cool clear water. The hot sun beat down on them, keeping them warm even as the icy shoulders their family's turned to them stood firm.

31. Spring: Riley's favorite season had always been summer but not anymore, now he liked Spring best. Why? Because at Spring time, Lance liked to take him out to the fields to work. Needless to say no work ever got done.

32. Winter: Lance used to hate winder with its snow and happy talking snow men but that changed after getting with Riley because winter meant family get together's, family get together's meant seeing Riley.

33. Shiver: Riley shuddered as he watched his lover jerking himself, he crept up behind him, whispering hotly in his ear. "Need some help?" He smirked at the shiver he felt run up Lance's spine before the needy "Yeah." Sounded back.

34. Solitude: Lance was used to being alone, that is except for Riley. He always said he would be fine alone but now, as he sat in his room with no lover, the loneliness was eating him up.

35. Rise: Their love rose with the sun but strangely, it never joined the moon with going down. No, their love stood strong through everything.

36. Simple: Their love was so simple, staring as a crush, evolving, and staying at something that had nothing but compassion and care between the two men. They weren't like David and Dewayne who seemed to never have problems, they had their problems but they worked through them so they had a healthy relationship. Sounds complicated but all they had to do was love each other, simple right?

37. Warm: The room was warm, the warmth of the fire heating Riley's skin but the ice on his heart refused to melt, not without Lance's loving touch there to sooth him.

38. Rush: As scary as it was, Lance loved sneaking around with Riley, sure if he was caught he was dead but it was so worth it to have that special tingling in his lips after he and Riley had met outside his window in the cover of the night.

39. Naughty: Riley knew everyone thought Lance was the perfect boy, innocent, farmers son but Riley knew better, Riley knew that his lover was not as innocent as he seemed, he was naughty...But only when the lights were out and they were alone.

40. Unknown: The unknown was the most feared thing ever, but it didn't really scare Lance, he knew that no matter what awaited them out there, he and Riley would beat it together,

41. Together: Since that first night together, when ever they got any chance, they spent every night together, wrapped in each others arms.

42. Trial: They had already faced trials such as not having a baby and Dustin hating Riley and they were getting through them and that was just the beginning, a beginning like that promised a life time of over coming trials.

43. Rings: A ring meant everything to most girls and alot of feminine boys. Lance didn't have a big diamond engagement ring to begin with, he had Riley's simple class ring and to him, that meant more than any expensive ring could.

44. Bed: There bed wasn't just any old bed, it was special, it was the bed they had first made love in, it was the bed they had slept in together, it was the bed they had shared sweet promises in....It was the bed Riley died in of a broken heart when Dustin took Lance away.

45. Worried: Lance had never been so worried as he was when Dustin forced Riley from the home, gun in hand, and fierce look on his face after finding them in bed together.

46. Swear: Riley swore he would love Lance until the day he died and he did, but sadly that was not the case with Lance. After Riley died he got with another man, lived a happy life most people thought but no because the day Riley died, Lance died with him.

47. Lips: Lance adored Riley's plump pink lips, the ones that murmured loving words, the ones that kissed away his tears, the ones that smiled at him when he needed hope.

48. Rain: The rain beat against the roof, a storm raging outside but inside Riley and Lance were none the wiser, dry and cuddling under the sheets.

49. Band: The golden wedding band that adorned the finger of both boys symbolized the their love and commitment, lost of times it took Riley's first in someones face for them to get that the ring also meant that Lance was taken.

50. Arms: Lance had been sheltered his whole life and he hated it, hated is father always protecting him but when it was Riley's arms around him, holding him close and keeping him safe...he didn't mind at all.