What Next?

Mike just stared as Zack lovingly. It was all he could do, Zack had become his everything.
He couldn't really leave even if he wanted too.

"I love you." Zack whispered and kissed Mike sweetly.

"I love you too Zack...."
He laid down and brought Zack with him. He wrapped Zack in his arms, determined to sleep with him all night.

"So, making love is out of the question tonight?" Zack gave a small smile as he nuzzled Mike's neck. He didn't mind though. He was content like this.

Mike was tired, his hand hurt but if Zack wanted....
"If you want me too baby, Ill make love to you right now."

"I'm not going to force you. I was just asking." Zack said softly. He could tell Mike was tired.

"Its fine baby...I can love you, I'm just a little tired." Mike kissed his lips softly.

"I know you are. But I want you to be wide awake whenever we make love." He kissed Mike's cheek.

Mike sighed and kissed the top of Zack's head.
"Ill do it soon baby. Im just tired and my hand hurts a little."

"I know and it's alright. Like I said, I'm not going to force you. I want you to mean it and do it when YOU want." Zack smiled. "Now good night, I love you."

"Love you more Zack." Mike whispered softly and he held his lover close. He would make love to Zack soon. It would be special.

Zack gave a small smile. No way that was true but he wouldn't argue.

Mike fell asleep soon. He hand hurt and he was tired but he was happy with Zack in his arms.

Zack fell asleep soon with a large smile on his face. Mike was holding him.

Mike did want to get up at one point in the middle of the night. He woke up and sat up and just stayed there. But he was trying to force himself to lay back down.

Zack hated how conscious he was of Mike's every move. Almost immediately after Mike got up, Zack was awake.
"Mike, baby. Go. I'm fine. you're trying and that's good enough for me." Zack gave a soft, sleepy smile.

"No....I want to sleep with you the night. I have worked so hard to do this and im going to fucking do it." He cursed his twisted ass as he took a deep breath and prepared to lay back down.

"Mike..." Zack frowned. "I don't want you to force yourself. I don't want it to be torture. I want you to do it because you are comfortable with it."

"Zack.....Don't argue please, I have worked hard for this and im doing to do it. I promised myself I would do it."

Zack sighed and held open his arms.
"Then do it...."

Mike's eye twitched as he laid down in Zack's arms. This was hard for him, it really was but he loved Zack, he needed to do this for himself and his lover.

Zack frowned. It was worse having Mike here and not wanting to be, then not having him at all.
"Mike, we can try again tomorrow."

"I wanna do this tonight though...."
He might not get any sleep but he would do this.

Zack sighed. He couldn't sleep much either. He couldn't sleep knowing Mike didn't want this.

Mike did want this, that was why he was trying so hard for this. He just had so many things wrong with him.