I Shouldn't...

Calvin frowned but pressed their lips together deeply, a calloused hand coming up to caress Gabriel's cheek.
He pulled back after a moment, that feeling of dread in his stomach.
"What is it..."

"You were gone...I didnt think you would get the money...I took it into my own hands Calvin." He sighed softly. "I went out, and I told the guys for one night, I would fuck if they could give me ALL the money we needed for Steven. Calvin I realized I would lose you but...Stevens life is worth more than anything. So I was telling them how much I needed, Gabriel was there, He was pissed, something about nasty creeps touching me. He offered since he was a friend and I would be protected, plus he gave more than we needed, I got a quarter of a million dollars of Gabriel Johnson for a good fuck. Angel came in, killed their baby, long story short, I got the money too, and I cheated on you baby." Gabriel sighed, his head down.

All the traces left of Calvin's smile disappaered, only heartbreak showing on his face.
He felt like someoen had kicked him in the gut, knocked the wind out of him...
He felt like he was dying. Yes that had to be the only way to describe this feeling.
He couldn't breath, his heart ached, he felt like he might barf, his knees were shaking, feeling like they'd go out on him at any moment now...

Gabriel looked up at him, his own face not much different, There was guilt, pain, and so much regret in his face.
He was losing his lover...
"C-Calvin...Y-You gotta understand baby....I-I thought we were losing Steven....There was nothing else I could do...And I didnt think you would get it..."

"Wh-... what the hell Gabriel?" His eyes watered but he spoke firmly as if they weren't there. "Dont act liek that was so fucking horrible for you! I doubt you gave me a single fucking thought. I'm your husband! You used to be a slut but you cant anymore! You fucking can't..." The tears had started pouring down his cheeks but he kept speaking. "Especially not with him! I know you fucking love him and you know I can't stand it. So if you were going to do this, why out of all people would you fuck him! Did you want me to leave you?! Why?! You're not fucking stupid Gabriel! Why would you do that?! I'm not fucking dumb either! I can get money! I could've sold some things of mine! There were so many goddamn options but what do you do?! You cheat on me! Don't you use Steven as your fucking excuse. You loved it. I know you wanted it... I just thought you'd have a little bit of courtesy to divorce me first!" Calvin covered his face, sobbing hard into his hands.

"Calvin you have not a damn thing you could sell to get that money!! And yes it had to be Gabriel! First off, not one else had this kind of money to spend on just one night!!! Only he did and I would rather fuck him and know I would be fucking safe rather than someone with another disease!! And im not using that baby and just some excuse Calvin! I fucking love him, he is baby boy! Ill admit, it was not bad okay? Yes we fucked and it was great but damnit Calvin if not for needing this money I wouldnt have gone out in the first place! Dont think I just got up and said 'oh wow, a great day to cheat on my husband!' NO I went out thinking I would fuck some pig! MULTIPLE PIGS because no one would have this sort of money!!! He did! So yes Calvin, I did Gabriel. He was not bad but dont think it was because I wanted it. And yes I did this about you! I thought about it!! Im not stupid your right, im smart and I knew what your reaction would be and I knew this money was needed and I knew if I didnt do Gabe I would do more people and risk another disease. I THINK SHIT OUT." He stomped his foot. "At first I said no! And then he told me how it was better to do it with him and he was right...I had to fuck around one time...And I got more than I needed..." He shook his head.

Calvin closed his eyes, his breathing heavy.
"Just... Go. Leave. I don't give a fuck where but I can't leave. I have to stay here while they do Steven's surgery and I don't want to see you."

Gabriel looked down, nodding slowly.
"Can...C-Can I say goodbye to St-Steven?"

"After the surgery. I'll call you." He looked away. "After the surgery which I will pay for with the money I got. In the meantime, why don't you take yours and use it to buy yourself a new husband..." He slowly walked back into Steven's room, the golden band still sitting proudly on his finger despite what he had said.

Gabriel stood there, most would have been to ashamed and he was but he had nerve, He stepped into that room and he dared Calvin to say anything in front of Steven. He stepped over to the bed and hugged his baby, kissing his cheek.
"I love you baby." He nodded, pulling out a thick wad of cash from his pocket and handing it to Steven. "When you feel better take Daddy somewhere and have Fun baby."

Steven whimpered lightly.
"Mwomma... I'm tared..."

Gabriel sighed softly, hugged Steven tighter.
"I know baby...It will be alright, daddy had gotten you taken care of."

"I love ew mwomma..." He wrapped his tiny arms around Gabriel's neck.

"I love you too baby...." Gabriel kissed his cheek, tears welling up in his eyes and falling into his son's hair.
"M-Momma has to go baby."

"But why?" He blinked. "Tan't ew tay hew wif me?" He whimpered softly.

"N-No baby...M-Momma had to g-go bye-bye for a while..." His body racked with sobs...
He would have to get a new momma...

"Wh-what?" Steven stammered, his own eyes tearing up. "Why?"

Gabriel sighed, sitting on edge of the bed.
"B-Because momma and daddy is getting a d-divorce baby...."

"Wh-what!?!" His tiny lip trembled.

"Shhhh Baby its going to be okay." He nodded. "You will be fine, you just remember I love you."

"But momma no! Why!" The boy panicked.

"Shhh calm down baby, because I was a bad momma. Daddy is going to get you a new one...So I got to go...And daddy will be here for you."

"No! I dont want a new mwomma! you aw a good mwomma!" He bawled.

Gabriel moved down, hugging his son tightly.
"Aww baby,....Shhh just calm down, I cant leave you here crying and daddy wants me to go, I gotta go..."

"NO! MWOMMA!" He sobbed, clutching onto his mother's chest.
Calvin sighed softly, caressing Steven's hair.
"You can stay for the surgery.." He looked away.