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"And in case you're wondering, Chris isn't there anymore. He's gone."

"Critter said that...." Critter had sorted everything out, he always seemed to do that for Mike. He was big brother to Mike it seemed like, since his own little brother died at war.

"Didn't know if he told you anything... Did he say anything else?" Alex asked. He wanted to know if Critter mentioned that Chris had kissed him.

Mike shrugged. "It there anything in particular you want to know if he mentioned?" Mike asked, hoping his mind was wrong and they had not done anything together. Critter hadn't told Mike, he left that up to Alex. It was not his place to tell Mike that.

"Well... Chris kissed me." Alex said bluntly. "But I didn't want it. And I pushed him off as soon as he did it. Then I kicked him out."

That was hard to hear, but Mike refused to get angry about it. It wasn't Alex's fault is what he kept saying but all h could hear was Alex moaning Chris's name in ecstasy and then them kissing........Mike squeezed his eyes shut and pressed his hands to his ears, trying to block it out and make it stop.

"Baby, what's wrong? I'm sorry sweety. I didn't want it. I pushed him off as soon as he did it. Please don't be upset with me." Alex panicked.

"I-I'm not." Mike pressed harder, it just wouldn't go away. It wouldn't quit and then Chris saying he was going to get Alex back. Tears welled up in his dull blue eyes. They had dulled since being sick and Alex having the dream about Chris. They weren't bright with hope anymore.

"Then what's the matter darling? I'm so sorry baby." Alex frowned, rubbing Mike's back soothingly.

Mike buried his head into Alex's chest. "I-I just can't make it stop......Y-You saying his name and t-then him saying all that shit to me and th-then him kissing you." Mike cried.

"Oh baby..." Alex sighed. He kissed the top of Mike's head.

Mike was so upset and so sick. He wasn't mad but he was hurting. Mike pulled away roughly so he could gag and dry heave into the porcelain bowl.

"Baby, you don't gotta worry about Chris getting me back. He'll be lucky if I ever speak to him again."

Mike sniffled and wiped his mouth. "I-Its okay...." It answered quietly, he was just upset the he couldn't be all that Alex needed.

"I love you so much darlin'. I'll never love anyone even half of what I love you."

Mike nodded and took Alex's hand, getting up and getting back into bed. That night Mike continued to be sick but it was better with Alex there. Soon they let Mike go home and a month later, he was doing better.

Alex didn't mention it but he was terrified inside. His wound was healing and he knew they wouldn't give him much more time at home. He was going to have to go back to war soon.

They hadn't seen or heard from Critter any since Alex had talked to him at the hospital. That is until now as Critter stood at there door, shivering as he pulled his jacket tighter around him. He knocked on there door, special papers clutched tightly in his hand.

Alex swung open the door.
"Critter! Where have you been?"

Critter shrugged "Around." He shivered again. "May I please come inside?"

"Course ya can." Alex stepped aside, making room for Critter to walk in.

Critter walked in a took his coat off, not letting the papers go though. "Mike! Come here, I got you and Alex a present!" That's what he was calling it anyways.

Alex raised an eyebrow and watched as his husband came walking into the room.

"Well, Alex Riley," He sounded very official and serious. "You have been discharged by the great U.S Army." A grin spread across his face "Your done."

Alex's jaw dropped, forming a perfect O.
"A-are you serious?"