What Next?

"Maryse told me part of it. And I'll atleast try Mike. And if I can't, well, I'll still love you."

Mike growled.
"What did she tell you?"
What all did Zack know.

"About your mom and dad..." Zack murmured.

Mike clenched his jaw.
"What about my mom and dad Zack."

"You're dad beat your mom.... killed her." Zack sighed.

Mike cut his eyes away from Zack.
"What in the fuck gives her the right to tell you about that?" He snarled, that was private.

"Why did you tell her and not me? If I'm going to be your lover I should know not that wh-" Zack growled but cut himself off.

"Zack.....You aren't my lover...Well yet, we haven't made love, you have just been my bitch....But that's going to change." Mike sighed and tentatively kissed Zack's cheek.
"I don't want you to know....I don't want you to know what all I have been through, its scary."

"I always pretended it was making love." Zack sighed. He'd never wanted to stop and think how it was just mindless fucking to Mike. "But I want to know these things. I didn't see why Maryse knew in the first place. We had a talk and I'm trying REALLY hard not to hate her. But it's hard." Zack grumbled.

"I didn't want to make love to you....Im fucking scared of loving you damnit!" Mike was trying not to cry again.
"She knows because I dont give a fuck what she thinks about me, I fucking care what you think, I care if you are leaving....."
Zack wouldn't like what all Mike's past held.

"Well I'm not leaving. And I don't care. I'll still love you no matter what." Zack sighed.

"Well I dont want to get into all that shit right now."
Mike refused to, it bothered him.

"Fine then. But someday I want to know alright?" Zack asked firmly.

"You say it like I have no choice...."
Zack was being to damn firm for a bitch.

"Because you do not. I may be the bitch. But you said that will change. So as your lover, I want to know those things."

"Your getting way to cocky....What if I don't want talk about it?"
He really didn't.

"I know its gotta be hard to talk about. But if you want me to be your lover, which you say you do, then you need to treat me like one. Tell me things."

Mike fidgeted lightly as he hid his face. He didn't want to tell Zack about what all he had been through.

Zack shook his head, sighing softly.
"You any warmer?"

"No....."
In truth was hadn't warmed any and he was defiantly sick with pneumonia.

Zack frowned.
"Does anywhere hurt? Like besides being cold?"

"Yes...."
His whole body hurt, he was numb and when he moved it stung and burnt. But what really hurt was his heart.
He didn't wanna tell Zack that.

"Oh okay..." Zack frowned. He was going to crawl on Mike and hug him, warm him. He was going to take a chance and do that but he didn't want to hurt him.

"Whats wrong? Its just that im so frozen...its hard for me to move, my body is numb...it burns when I move..." Mike shivered, his teeth chattered.

"I was gonna hug you. Like warm you. But yeah, that's stupid. You don't like being touched anyway..." Zack trailed off blushing.