Undesired

Chris screamed in his head. Mother fucker.
He wanted to do so much right now and he couldn't do a damn thing!

"Chris you can hate me all you want too. But you are going to have to deal with me because we share a family. Your fiance was mine a long time ago, your kid is MINE. But he is not yours anymore. Let me tell you right now, I did not tell Dewayne to move out. He told me he needed somewhere to do because he was leaving. Chris what in the hell where you thinking? You have a baby in your stomach." Mike sighed, gently kissing Chris's forehead. "You could really have hurt yourself or your little baby boy."

Chris simply let out a small grunt which was all he could do. He hadn't met to hurt himself that bad. Just like a normal cutter...

Mike bent wdown, rested they forheads together and staring into Chris's dark rown eyes.
"I don't want you to hate me...But you have hated me from day one so im not one bit hopeful you will ever like me. I guess im stupid but in here for you."

Chris grunted again, wanting to speak.
He wanted to tell Mike he hadn't hated him since meeting Dustin until now that he was taking his son...

Mike shook his head.
"And stop looking at me like that. Im not taking Dewayne. Chris he lives with you, if anything you are taking my baby away from me and I let it happen. I was happy he finally had a momma but tonight after this little stunt he told me you had just made up his mind for him. He don't wanna live with you anymore. Don't think im trying to egg him on. I told him to wait but he told me no. I have nothing to do with it."

Chris whimpered as he began to be able to move. But only his feet and hands, he was slowly regaining his control

Mike sighed and shook his head.
"Im sorry Chris, Im trying to let you....I really am."
He stood up and took a seat on the couch.

A few minutes passed and Chris was able to move again. He sighed as he glanced over at Mike warily.

Mike looked at him.
"I-If you want me to leave ill go. Dustin is sedated and David took Dewayne into the other room...."

Chris simply shook his head.
"You don't have to..."

"But I will. Im not needed or wanted so...bye." Mike stood up. It Shouldn't have hurt so bad, he wanted to be close with Chris because Chris was with Dustin and Dewayne..

Chris wanted that too. They had started to get along but Chris just couldn't take it anymore..... how fucking perfect everyoen thought Mike was. How fucking sweet and innocent...

Buit Mike wasn't sweet and innocent, no one thought that. Not even Alex could think that. Mike had not been innocent since that man had raped him, he screamed and yelled and had his mood swings. He was sweet but he was also mean sometimes. Mike was not perfect.

And yet it sure as hell seemed like he was. No matter what Mike did, he could do no wrong. Everyone was quick to forgive him. Even though he was the biggest grudge holder Chris had ever met. Everyone automatically forgave him but he refused to forgive anyone....
Chris just hated it. Hated how everyone loved Mike so much....

Mike paused, his hand one the door.
"Why do you hate me so much?"

"BEcause everyone loves you. You make mistakes, I know you do. Everyone does. Yet, everyone sees you as so fucking perfect..." He looked down.

Mike sighed.
"Chris I am not perfect. I will tell you now im not. You are not around me enough to say that. Me and Dustin fight, he knows im not perfect...He just dont like holding grudges with me because to him I have been through so much he dont wanna hurt me more, I dont see why. And me and Alex just love eachother...I cant stay mad at him, I just hurt. Im not perfect, im not always sweet, im not innocent......If anything im a bitch."

"You jsut.... either have or have had everything I want and I can't take it. I had Alex, you have him now. I find Dustin, find out, oh yeah Mike used to have him. Dewayne... yupp, he's Mike's. I just can't stand it.... I'm sick of always getting Mike's leftovers. I can't fucking compare to you Mike...." Chris shook his head, eyes tearing up.

Mike walked over to him and shook his head.
"Chris....Thats ridiculous. Yes, I have Alex but he was yours fisrt. You were the first one to have him. So I had Dustin, He loves you more now, than he ever loved me. He is so...just....God Chris you dont even know how much that man is willing to bend over backwards for you. And Dewayne, yes he is mine. I had him but he died. He does not live with me. He lives with you. He loves you MORE! Im not taking your baby, your taking mine. I let Alex be friends with you, I dont care. So insted of being pissed because of my pass, why not be my friend. Dustin loves you, Dewayne loves you MORE THEN THEY EVER LOVED ME! I dont know how you think different but I know better."

"I just... it doesn't seem like it." Chris sighed. "And I am glad you let me talk to Alex, just.... what we had was a fuck. Nothing more. Not even making love. You and Dustin... were so happy. All the memories... the pictures, the sexy dancing or whatever, you two were engaged, had a kid... just... it hurts. It hurts seeing Dewayne every once in a while but I love him. So much. I'm sorry." He shook his head and rubbed at his eyes before they had a chance to tear up.

Mike pulled Chris to his chest.
"Chris...Me and Dustin were in love. We knew eachother all out lives and we were together for seven years. You have not been with him that long and I bet you will be with him LONGER. Chris baby, those memories were made though a lifetime of love, you will have that and so much more. You will see Chris...."

Chris sighed as he rested his forehead on Mike's shoulder.
He really doubted it but okay....

"Chris, you just wait, when you have been together eight years, imma fucking remind you of this. He loves you more than he ever loved me. I know, he is my bestfriend. He tells me things and guess what? He told me he loved you more than he ever loves anything...including me."

"He did...?" Chris asked softly, looking up at Mike curiously.