Just A Number..

"NO! I can't! I fucking love you! I can't leave you alone knowing you're mad at me!"

"Well you sounded like you wanted to fuck Biddy if you weren't already doing it!" He tried to roll away.

"No I don't! I don't think of him like that! You are the only person I think of like that and the only person i will EVER think of like that!"

"Let me go!" He threw himself out of is chair, draging himself away.

Rick jogged over to him easily and picked him up.
"Kevin come on. Please baby..."

Kevin looked away.
"I-I missed you....I wasnt even gone for a whole day and you were with Biddy."

"I missed you too sweety. So much... if Biddy is okay you can ask him. We didn't do anything babe. I was crying because you left. He was just helping me through it when Higgy brought some whore home. I was simply returning the favor by comforting him. I didn't cheat on you. We didn't even kiss."

Kevin pressed himself to Rick's chest.
"Y-You btter not have or else I would have to fucking kill him."

Rick smiled, holding Kevin tightly.
"I missed you baby... don't you fucking scare me like that again..."

"I scared YOU! Im the one who came home to head nothing but OH GOD BIDDY!" He frowned.

"And you're the one who left, taking my baby with you." He kissed Kevin's cheek, holding him close.

"I....I couldn't leave him....He is my baby too. I left Rick Jr." He buried his head in the crook of Zac's neck/

"Okay baby, well, we need to talk about this sometime. And you gotta go get Zac from whereever you two were hiding out at and come on home."

"I don't know.....I dont wanna fight again. If you need him ill bring him home but I need to stay away for a bit....I dont want us to fight and break up."

"Kevin... baby I need you with me.... I cant' take it without you here. Ask Biddy I fucking lost it..."

"Rick baby we need some time apart. I cant take it if you and me break up....I cant let us do it..."

"A-are you... y-you're breaking up with me though... we're taking a b-break?" Rick stammered. No. He refused to let himself cry right now. He'd done enough of that.

Kevin frowned, trying to understand that. He wasn't breaking up with Rick, he loved Rick. He didnt want to, he just didnt think they should be together as much until they had it worked out so they wouldnt fight and really break up.

Rick's heart was cracking more and more with each passing second as he waited for Kevin to kiss him. Kiss him and tell him he was ccoming home right away, and acting like this had never happened....

"Rick....I don't think I need to come home...."
He wanted to, he wanted to go home, wanted to love Rick and go home. Like this never happened.

"I-I..." Rick looked away. "Wh-why.... h-how..." How was Kevin doing this to him? He'd given up his whole life, literally, for Kevin. "I-I left Syd for you... Carrie... killed myself. H-how?" He trailed off, you could see his heart breaking in his eyes.

Kevin frowned, taking his face in his hands.
"Yes, you did....What do you mean? I-Im not breaking up with you Rick..I dont wanna be away but I cant sat and let us fight until we do break up. I cant let it happen, I wont. I cannot be without you. You left it all for me.....You dont regret it right?"

"Of course I don't! I fucking love you and you're leaving!" Rick put a hand over his eyes and cried into it so Kevin wouldn't see. "Why won't you let me talk!? You won't hear me out!" He cried harder, covering his face.

Kevin cursed, holding onto Rick so he didnt fall to the ground.
"No! Rick I....I will hear you out baby, its okay." He held tighter, kissing the hands covering his face.
"Shhhh you talk to me and ill listen."

"I t-tried to and you said I was putting you on a g-guilt trip..." Rick whimpered, cursing himself. He never whimpered but Kevin was going to fucking leave him...