Undesired

"E-everyone said it w-wasn't okay for y-you to h-hold everything in l-like you do! They s-said I had to m-make you cry... or i-it could get b-bad! I l-lied to do it! I l-love you Biddy b-bird!"

Biddy looked away.
He lied?
Everything he said....
A lie?"

"I-I'm so s-sorry Biddy! I love y-you! M-more than almost a-anything..." Rick sniffled

"I-I...You dont p-pity me? Y-You dont lead me o-on or t-talk being my back?"

"N-never Biddy! I-I was just trying to h-help..." Rick dug the palms of his hands into his eeys.

Biddy stood up and threw himself into Rick's arms.
"T-THEN I DONT EVEN WANT YOU H-HELP AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Rick held him tightly and bawled harder, squeezing him close.
"BIDDY IM SORRY!" He sobbed.

"S-SORRY! RICK LOOK WHAT YOU FUCKING DID! I LOST MY WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY! I HAD JUST BROKEN UP WITH HIGGY AND I JUST GOT HIM BACK BECAUSE OF THIS!"

"IT WAS SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU!" Rick sobbed as he held onto Biddy.

It had not help him at all....It had ruined everything. It had taken his family away, the only thing he had to smile for. It had taken his best friend away, made him feel like he was not welcome in his mothers house. It made him move out. He had just broken up with Higgy but as soon as this happened his took his stuff home only to see Higgy there and apologize and BEG forgiveness. It had lost him everything, it confirmed his worse fears.
It wiped the smile off his face....

"B-Biddy bird... I love you." Rick whispered quietly, holding onto his brother in law.

Biddy shook his head.
"I-I don't fucking wanna hear that R-Rick."
No....
He wouldn't fall for it again.

"I-It's true..." Rick dug the palms of his hands into his eyes.

"W-What in the fuck ever M-McGuire..." Biddy looked away, he had been crying for hours now.....

"B-Biddy, I don't expect y-you to forgive me. I w-wish you could but I d-don't desrve it... wh-what I did to you is a-awful and even i-if it did help I'd s-still feel like a b-bastard. I love you so f-fucking much. I swear o-on K-Kevin's safety that that is t-true. I l-love you more than a-almost anything. O-only less than Z-zac, Jr and K-Kev. I'm s-so sorry for l-lying I was trying to h-help but I o-obviously didn't. I meant to and if I knew it w-wouldn't work I would never have a-agreed to it.... I j-just love you and if you n-never forgive me... I g-guess I deserve it but j-just know I love you with a-all my fucking heart Biddy Riley..."

"B-Biddy Brey. Im not His son anymore. I-I wont be his son outta pity God damnit. I-Im glad you told me, a-atleast I know. Y-You....I can see h-how you got s-some of that s-stuff but I trusted you....I f-fell back on you when the b-beatings got so b-bad or wh-when he was cheating on m-me and you f-fucking threw i-it in my f-face..."
He trusted Rick....
He used to anyways.
Now he was all alone again...

"B-Biddy I'm so sorry... I-I... it isn't out of pity... I was l-lying..." He sniffled.

"N-Nice one Rick...."
Hope he is happy....
Biddy couldnt seem to smile.

Rick sighed and stood. He pulled Biddy into his arms, hugging him with as much love as possible.
He pressed his lips to Biddy's forehead.
"I love you." He whispered and turned, walking towards the door.

"L-Love you too a-asshole."
Biddy didn't wanna be alone...
But he didnt want Pity...

Rick had his hand on the doorknob before he turned.
"Biddy bird, none of us pity you... ESPECIALLY not me... you can come back whenever you want. I love you and I'll miss you so fucking much..."

"Miss you too R-Rick...."
Biddy looked just fucking defeated. Making him cry had not helped, it had broken him.
Higgy busted through the door.
"BIDDY!!" He hollered as he stopped into the room.
Biddy was done trying. He wasn't going to say anything or hit back.
He just fell as Higgy's hand connected with his cheek.
Higgy looked at Rick.
"Get out."

Not this time. Biddy was fucking bawling and all Higgy could do was hit him.
Rick rose to his full height, about equal with Higgy.
"Make me BITCH."

Biddy stared a moment, tugging on Higgy's pants leg.
"Dont hurt him....Just throw him out."
And thats what Higgy did, he shoved Rick out the room on his ass.

Rick stood and walked right back in.
"Don't touch him." He pointed at Biddy.