Undesired

"I missed you and love you too Mikey." He sighed softly, kissing his forehead.

"Wh-What do you want me to do A-Alex? I-Ill do anything just..... to prove how sorry I am." Mike sniffled.

"I don't know Mikey. I just never thought you'd do that..."

Mike puled back and looked away, ashamed.
"I-I......I was trying to pretend I didn't care. Y-You....I thought you were with Lane...I-I thought if you didnt love me I should be able to fuck Rick and be okay b-but....I-I couldn't even go through with it. I-I had to stop him because he hurt me...."

"Mikey I can't believe you thought I'd do that to you again... I'm OVER HIM."

"Baby...I was just so scared...I didn't know what to do and me and Rick had just been fighting and I needed you....Y-You weren't here and you were with someone, you sounded tired....Im sorry Alex.....I-I......couldn't say no....R-Rick brought it backup, he wanted to because he thought you were with Lane too....He thought you were hurting me like that so he said he would and....I couldn't say no....Besides he needed something to make him stop crying over Kevin."

"I will fucking murder that boy." Alex growled.

"Alex....If you need to hurt someone you need to hurt me...I-I didn't stop him." He shook his head.

"I can't hurt you. You know that." He sighed.

"But I.....I want you to Alex...Please?" Mike really did want him too...

"No Mikey, And don't you even think about getting Higgy or Dusitn to hit you because I will leave if you do." He warned.

"B-But....I deserved it...." He whimpered, looking up at Alex pleadingly.
It was killing him...

"You DONT deserve to be hit...." Alex shok his head firmly.

Mike sat up on his knees, looking at Alex with disbelieve.
"I do deserve that....You know I do...Your just being good to me....and you shouldn't be..."

"Mikey I've been anything but good to you... I... I probably deserved this." He looked away.

"A-Alex..." Mike pressed close to him.
"There was a point I didn't know any more...I thought maybe we loved each other but we weren't...In love anymore....But I was wrong...I-I knew that when Rick was touching my and I felt nothing but...I felt like someone was burning me..."

Alex shook his head.
"I did deserve that..."

Mike frowned.
"Why in the hell would you think that?"

"Because I did! I'm awful to you...." He sighed softly.

"A-Alex....baby....no....."
He would never tell Alex what he had told Rick..

"Yes I fucking am! I don't deserve you! No one does. You're perfect!" He growled.

"No! If I was perfect I wouldn't have done that to you...I-I hurt you...I-I need my ass beat." He sniffled.

"No you dont! I need MY ass beat!" He sniffld

"For what! You haven't done anything wrong! You were working hard to make me something and I fucked around on you! Proved myself to me the whore everyone thinks I am!!"

"I loved Lane before. I'm still awful for that......." He sighed.