When Crickets Cry...

"No... Riley, I eat. I eat so much..." And then he barfed it up.

"And then you fucking puke. You eat....youll be so much better and....I wont hurt myself."

"But.... but Riley, I was just starting to lose weight..." He whimpered.

"Keep on and ill lose so much weight I die again and again until I never come back...." He kissed Sean's cheek.

Sean sighed softly.
"CAn't you just leave me alone...."

"No...I can't....." He sighed, hugging him close.
He was going to help him....

But bulimia wasn't so easy to stop... it had become an addiction....

Riley knew that.
He called his boyfriend and lover, Lance even though it was like three in the morning.

Lance groaned as his phone woke him up. But he smiled when he saw who it was.
"'ello?" He mumbled sleepily.

Riley sighed.
"Lance....Sean has bulima im sure....until he is okay im...im not eating so...I just letting you know whats going on baby."

"Baby..." He sighed softly. "I don't want you hurting yourself..."

"I have too...He is my baby brother and its my job to somehow do something." He sighed. "I dont want to."

Lance sighed.
"Okay baby but if it gets too bad I'm going to forcefeed you." He nodded.

'Awwww, does my little cow boy worry about me?" He smiled, he wanted his lover....He was not happy about this.
He was fucking scared.

"Hell yes. You're my baby and I won't let you die again okay?" He sighed.

He couldn't tell Lance how scared he was though....
Not his little rider.
"Lance baby....Im trying to handle it..."

"This isn't the way to go about it Riley... bulimia isn't something he can stop by choice... he needs professional help..."

"Well...Help me baby? Your so smart. I don't know anything else to do..." He sighed.

"You gotta tell your mom or dad... or come and tell my brother in law if you don't want to make it a big deal at the house. He's a doctor and therapist. He might be able to do something for him..."

"Lets go tell your brother in law please." He nodded. 'im sorry for waking you...I needed help and just hearing your voice is soothing for me."

"It's alright baby." His southern drawl came through thick, especially in that last line. "You can come over any time and I can show you to his place. He's the sweetest guy you'll ever meet, well besides yourself."

Riley laughed but grew quiet.
"Can I come over now? Just to...Lay with you?"

"Course you can. I love that.." He smiled softly.

Riley grinned, sneaking out and running all the way to his lovers house, climbing his tree and tapping on the glass.
it was cold out...
He was in a tank to and shorts.
Snow covered the ground.

Lance giggled as he opened the window.
"You are so... Riley." He shook hsi head as he helped him in.