If Eyes Could Speak

Angel shook his head.
"No....No they dont and never did,...No one ever cared for me...." Thats why his virginity was taken at four....actually eleven months but he refused to admit that.

Gabriel sighed at him and held him close.
"I'm not selling you anymore okay?"

"You need money...I bring in good money...Its okay im so used to it now...." Unless Gabriel just didnt want other people touching him.

"But.. I don't want to sell you anymore...." He murmured...

Angel blinked, a small smile taking over his face.
"Oh ....Gabriel......" He hugged him tightly. He didnt know what to say, he felt happy tears in his eyes.

Gabriel, embarassed a little, hugged back, kissing his jawline softly.

"You are....So strange....and I love every second of it." He giggled. "And I love your stubble."

"I know I'm fucking strange." He shook his head. "And do you?" He chuckled, rubbing the smalll hairs on his face.

Angel nodded, straddling his master and hesitantly rubbing his hand against the stubble.

Gabriel smiled softly at him, rubbing his hair.

Angels baby blue eyes were alight with love for this man who had hurt him so bad.
"Can I ask you something?" He cocked his head to the side. It just bothered him....Not about Gabriel but he wondered if this is why he was crazy. "How old were you when you lost your virginity.

"Like, in general or on bottom?" He raised an eyebrow.

"General....." He hated it...no one had lost it as soon as he had....

"Five." Gabriel spoke blankly, looking away. You might wonder how he'd lost it that young when he was top... you'd be surprised at some of the people he'd grown up with.... He remembered the day vividly.

"I say mine was four." He said it but that didnt make it true.....

"You say that?" He raised an eyebrow. "What do you mean?"

"Well....I have never told anyone how old I really was....I mean....I.....It happened and then after that it happened again when I was four so I just...erase the first time..."

"How old were you Angel?" He raised an eyebrow.

"I......" He looked away, he had never told anyone before......He was scared of what they would say...

Gabriel cupped Angel's chin in his hand.
"You can talk to me. Here, I'll tell you something I've never told someone before... when I was real small my dad left my mom. She was horny so when I was five she rode me. She was upset cause it wasn't bigger but it got her off. Thats how I lost my virginity." He shrugged. She did that at least once a week til he was eighteen and moved out.

Angel frowned, hugging him tight.
"Your momma.....I dont think I like your momma....." He knew he didnt, she had molested Gabriel....
"You are a good man Gabriel......But things happen and you change but I know...I see you like no one else does....." He was so in love....

"Momma was..." Part of him felt for her. She was just all alone, wanted someone to fuck, was it such a crime. Well yes but... he didn't know. He wanted to hate her for what she'd done but he couldn't. He still visited her every once in a while... "Anyways, I'm over it. Angel... I'm not going to make you tell but just know I won't judge you okay?"

"I want to tell...Its just hard....Its one reason I can't have kids....I was..." He shook his head, he was obviously not over it. He pressed close, mumbling into Gabriels chest.
"Eleven Months....."

Gabriel blinked and looked down at him incredulously.
"oh that... that is so fucking sick." He hugged Angel tighter.

"I was picked up by that Trever man.....He figured why not?.....I was a small baby...I still have scars and stuff from where he tore me...I mean....You might not have noticed but if you feel inside me,....there is something there, you can feel it where he split me, alot of scars are him but I was so young...I just block it out.., I skin on to when I was four...."