Tough Little Boys

"I couldn't dream of leaving him. It just hurts." He sighed but he felt for Kevin... He stroked his back. "Kev it isn't like Rick doesn't want to have your babies. He does. So bad but he can't have you hurt."

"Thats it though, he might have cheated but that makes me the bad lover."
Kevin hugged Chris tighter.

"You're not bad Kevin. You're a good lover." He kissed his cheek. "So... how do you think your momma would take this if he found out?"

"I don't know....this is the second time....momma will be heart broken. Might leave daddy...I just dont know." Kevin sighed, his face pained.

"Do you think we should tell him? Dustin told me not to." He asked.

"Rick asked me no to....I dont know....He should be told but I think daddy should be the one to tell him since he is the one who cheated on him..."

"Maybe try and talk your daddy into it..." Chris nodded.

"I dont wanna talk to him Chris....Im ashamed of him." Kevin shook his head.

"And I... I can't talk to him Kev." He couldn't look at Alex right now.

"I wished daddy cared enough to just tell momma what he did and take his punishment...I dunno what I would do if Rick cheated and just never told me...let me be naive and stupid..." But rick had, he had fucked Mike and no one told Kevin.

Chris sighed and decided against telling Kevin. He wouldn't do that to his brother...
"Well I'm glad Dustin told me..."

"Dustin just the kind of man who will say when he fucked up. He knows that if he would have not told you it would have been worse. Like me.....If I didnt know about Biddy and Rick didnt tell me...I would have just left him. I cant stand for someone to do something and then lie to my face and pretend its okay."

Chris sighed.
"Yeah..." He would get Rick to tell Kevin about Mike. "I think I'm gonna go home.."

"I heard Dustin's loud mouth down stairs, I think he came to make sure you were okay."
Kevin nodded, humming to himself.
"I can't believe Rick has only cheated once...I mean not that he is a whore anymore, its just....im all sick and naive.....Why not?"

"He loves you Kev... thanks... bye..." Chris chewed his lip and walked away, down the stairs.
"Hey Chris..." Alex piped up, forehead creasing in worry.
"Yeah hi." He refused to look at Alex as he walked past to stand by Dustins side.

Dustin frowned at him, pulling Chris to his chest and holding him there tightly.
"Chris baby....You want me to move out?" Dustin would do it if Chris needed him to, he would do almost anything for Chris, except be away from his children.

"No. I love you." Chris nodded.
"Chris.." Alex tried once more, reaching out and grabbing his hand.
"Please. Knock it off Alex." He jerked his hand away. "I'm going home. You can stay here for a while if you... want to." He sighed at Dustin.

Dustin took a deep breath and kissed Chris.
"Chris.....Imma come at night just to check on my child but thats it. Me and Alex have never loved each other in that way but I do love him. I love the whole family but im IN love with you and only you Chris...."

"I know Dustin." Chris nodded, avoiding his gaze.

Dustin sighed, looking around for Mike before patting Alex's stomach.
"Take care of my babies." He nodded and hugged Chris closer.

Alex nodded.
"Bye then."
Chris kissed Dustin's cheek and walked out the door.

Dustin kissed Alex's belly once more before following Chris out the house. Kevin hummed to himself, looking down at his father over the stair rails with a disappointed expression.

"Hey Kev..." Alex looked up at him, smiling softly.

When they got to their house, Chris took Dustin's hands and faced him, looking him in the eyes.
"Babe... I'm hurt. I'm upset... I wasn't really angry but I tried to act like it. I love you and... I won't say its okay because it really isnt' but I will say I forgive you. You were drunk... it was a mistake. I won't ask you to abandon your kids and even if I did I know you wouldn't." He sighed and went on. "But I saw that look you had back there. Jealousy or whatever. I'm telling you right now it had better have been over that damn baby and not alex because so help me god if you have any feelings towards him you let me know right now..."

Kevin shook his head.
"Me and you need to talk later daddy...."
Dustin leaned in and kissed him swiftly, his hands pressing Chris close.
"Chris...I love Alex...because he will be the mother of my kid, he makes Mike happy, and he is a good father to Kevin. Im IN LOVE with you because I was never more proud then when you said yes....I cannot fathom living a day without you here with me. Because you are the first and last thing on my mind at the beginning and end of everyday. Because when I close my eyes, I see your face....I cant sleep happily without....Chris baby....I wont ever love anyone like I love you. I was jealous, not of Mike and Alex but of Mike and MY children...."

"...you know?" Alex sighed softly looking up at his son, ashamed.

Chris sighed and hugged him close, kissing him softly.
"Look, I won't put you through all the stress at once but after Alex has the kid, you're getting me pregnant again. I refuse you to have two kids that arent mine and only one that is." He sighed, kissing his cheek and smiling softly.