Re: But I Am Still Here....Why Am I Still Here?

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 1:07 am

"Dustin... i gotta talk to him..." Alex sighed.

by **Mike Mizanin** Mon May 23, 2011 1:15 am

"You need to let him cool off, he is devastated and he wont come home without Aaron so just drop it."

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 1:17 am

"Dustin please just let me in." Alex begged.

by **Mike Mizanin** Mon May 23, 2011 1:19 am

Dustin groaned. "No....I cant...but his window is open so...bye." He shut the door.

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 1:23 am

Alex grumbled and cursed. He trudged off to Zac and Quincy's.
Quincy was twice as protective as usual after finding out what Aaron and Zac had done so after some questioning Alex was allowed to see his grandson.
"Hey babe, can I borrow your guitar?"
"Um why?"
"Cause mine's broke and I need to play one..."
"Alright. keep it safe." He nodded and handed over his guitar.
"Thank you."
"Welcome grampa."
Alex nodded and walked back to Dustin's, standing under the open window.

by **Mike Mizanin** Mon May 23, 2011 1:25 am

Mike didnt notice him, he was still slicing, watching the blood drip and ooze out.

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 1:27 am

Alex began strumming the guitar. After a minute or two his voice joined in.
"So now you're running
It's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
You're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me?
I've treated you badly
But I am still here..."

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 7:35 am

Mike peeked out the window, listening closely and reaching out to Alex, blood dripping from his finger tips but he didnt care. "Yes...You have treated me like Shit and you always do...you make me just want to hurt myself....I dont know if I can forgive you." He whispered.

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:16 pm

Alex just continued singing.
"Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
That's how you make me
Sometimes I question
Why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
Can you help me understand?"

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:19 pm

Mike sighed down at him, shaking his head.
"Maybe we shouldn't be together, maybe we have been lying to ourselves...we arent meant to be."

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:21 pm

Alex brushed it off. Of course they were meant to be...
"And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
You look at me through clouded eyes,
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars;
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind,
We've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy..."

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:23 pm

Mike nodded.
"Yeah, im the one turning my back. im the one hurting you Alex. Thats all I ever do isnt it? I never do anything for you!" He shook his head, he did everything he could and he has never went a day without hating himself for cheating. Alex couldnt give him a week or two...as long as he needed? he was the crazy one.

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:26 pm

Alex sighed once again but didn't stop.
"Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait (I would wait)

You know I would wait forever
Yes, I would wait

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else, something to somebody else..."
He finished.

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:28 pm

Mike stared.
"Yes, you mean alot to so many people, and more to me than anything. Is this you telling me we are over? Fine." Mike turned away, shutting the window.

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:30 pm

"Mikey baby!" Alex cursed. "Please come down here.. or llet me up."

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:31 pm

Mike sighed, slamming the window shut.
A few minutes later he came from the house, dripping blood from all parts of his baby and looking ready to just let it all go. He was tired of all of this shit.

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:34 pm

"Fuck! Baby what did you do to yourself?" He sighed.

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:37 pm

"Shut up." Mike shook his head. "Im tired of this Alex. Im tired of it. You know what im known as around are family and every one else? Im the whore who is a shitty mother. Im tired of it. They hate me, and Kevin looks at me like in horrible sometimes and your two dont like me and im trying so hard to be good to them...Alex im tired.."

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:39 pm

"I'm sorry baby..." He sighed heavily.

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:42 pm

"Maybe me and you just arent..." He sighed softly.

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:43 pm

"Baby we have to be... we didn't just waste almost a hundred and fifty years of our lives and death..."

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:49 pm

Mike nodded, leaning forward and falling into Alex.
"What did I do that makes it impossible for you to put me first...if not me our family. People look at Kev and snicker about him being like his whore momma. They see Rick and giggle about how we tried to cheat. They look at the whole family and say they are poor because their momma is a deadbeat..."

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 3:53 pm

"I'm sorry... you know I love you right?" he sighed.

by **Angel Precious McDaniel's** Mon May 23, 2011 3:59 pm

"No Alex, No I don't. But I know Chris loves Dustin and Dustin loves Chris and Quincy loves Zac and Zac loves Quincy and Rick loves Kevin and Kevin loves Rick and even Gabriel loves Angel. I love you, but I dont see you loving me."

by **Gabriel Johnson** Mon May 23, 2011 4:00 pm

Alex blinked, hurt. Was he really that bad?
"Gabriel loves Angel but... I don't love you?"

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