Cowgirls Don't Cry.

"Like what? I have tried everything and nothing else helping me..." He sighed softly.

"Do something spontaneous... just really fun... take your old familiar love and make it new again. Kiss him like your lover not your husband."

"Like what Rick? Run off on a second honey moon like we did when we conceived Kevin?" He remembered...That day had been brilliant.

"Sometihng like that. Or... just sometihng like the old you would've done. Give him a lap dance... I hate thinking about you old people fucking but... ride him or sometihng. Be... sexy..."

"Are you saying im not sexy now?" He raised his eye brows at Rick.

"No... um... THERE IS NO RIGHT ANSWER TO THIS!" He chuckled. "I just mean... I haven't heard you two... having fun. Your sex life seems a little... nonexistant..."

Mike blushed but nodded, he knew what Rick meant.
"Well, anyways, you have had me and three of my kids to either your going to fuck the whole family you there is something about me thats sexy."

"Have I raelly...? Oh fuck. I have. Theres too many if I wanna fuck them all." He chuckled. "If you mean just your kids then maybe." He joked.

Mike rolled his eyes.
"Anyways, whats something you did with Kevin that really got you off? No matter what the cost you loved it?"

"Well... I... I hate that I hurt him but... when we did the rape fantasy thing I loved it..." He looked ashamed. "I loved it until I found out I hurt him. But that could be just me... Like Chris said Dustin actually got soft when they tried it cause he couldn't hurt Chris even pretend.."

Mike nodded, smiling softly and kissing Rick's head.
"Poor baby...so sweet." He sighed, hugging his son.
"Imma ask Alex about it...Take him out for a week somewhere special...try that....see what he thinks?"

Rick nodded with a smile.
"Good luck with that."

"And good luck with you and daddy up there." He chuckled and kissed Rick's nose.

Rick smiled.
"Yeah I could use some luck there.."

"It wont be too bad Rick, I know it wont.....Well..." He sighed softly.

"It will." He sighed heavily.

Mike nodded...
But what if Rick caught Kevin being upset during this?
What would he do...

"Mike.. I dont want to do this if hes going to be so upset..." He didn't want to go through his pregnancy alone like he'd had to do with his cancer...

"Then you'll be fine...."
Kevin...Sweet innocent Kevin....
He would suck it up for Rick, he would turn back into the strong boy he had been when he was younger. He would lock away his pain...
He would be here.

"I dont want him to fake it either. I just... want him to be happy." He sighed.

Mike shook his head.
"Baby....You can't make him happy right now. At least this way he will feel like he was doing something right for you."

"No... I... Momma I can't do this." He shook his head.

"Baby you got to or he wont be able to live with himself. In his eyes...He is making up for not helping you with Caner...And...He thinks its alright because he had his chance to be momma...Jr is gone. That was his chance..."

"I just.. I want to be happy about my baby.. I dont' want to have to be terrified of him kicking... or the actual birth because it will hurt Kevin..."

"Then get pregnant, be excited Rick, it will all work out okay, you will see, and if not you will always have me." He pecked his babies cheek.