Cowgirls Don't Cry.

"Don't tell but,... you're my favorite." He smiled. "You and Biddy were tied but... he left me." He pouted.

Kevin couldn't help it, he squealed and bounced around for a moment before just hugging his father tight.
"Kay daddy...."
Biddy couldnt help it, he had a family.
He missed his daddy though...

"So, how'd popping Rick's cherry go?" He wiggled his brows. Yes normally he didn't like talking about his son's sex life but this was special..

Kevin smiled softly.
"It was amazing daddy....If I tell you about this you gotta swear not to tell ANYONE about ANY of this okay? Im trusting you with all of this...I dont tell people about our sex life...or about issues I have right now or ever so...Swear."

"Alright baby. I promise, I know how shy you are about it." He chuckled.

Kevin giggled softly, nodding.
"Okay so...Since I was topping I was trying to be all...not myself...sexy.....Rick didnt like it much...He likes the blushing babbling idiot I always am apparently. Im like...still uncomfortable to be naked with him....in the same room no matter what we are doing. I wanted to change and be a good top. I sucked daddy. He fucking smiled at me and I fell down on top of him, lost my breath, couldn't get it back...He really is breathtaking." Kevin winked at him, that same blush creeping up his cheeks and settling there.

Alex chuckled, stroking his hair.
"Thats my baby." He shook his head, smiling.

"Your baby is ridiculous....So then Rick decided to stop my suffering and...ride me....I came rather fast." He admitted quietly, the blush heating up more and more. "I...I um...I had to give him head to make him come...talk about a great first time for him huh?" Kevin murmured. He felt horrible...he had wanted Rick to enjoy it...Wanted it to be the best sex of his life.
He didnt even come during the intercourse.

"Hey don't worry about that baby. He just ain't a bottom sort of guy. I'm sure if you ever do it again it'll be better."

"I just....Daddy, that was so special...my first time with Rick was my best time ever...I wanted it to be the same with him. I know other people would be better tops for him but...I just....I guess I thought if I could be that good....He wouldnt cheat on me ever again...And when he didnt even come...All I could think of was how bad it must have been...maybe he would want to try it with someone more experienced...I didnt worry about him cheating at first...then you cheated on momma....Well that was bad but I told myself Rick loved me too much for that...then he knocked Biddy up....Well....I have never felt that kind if pain...I never got over it...Like I never quite got over you being glad I was never born..It was just..." He shook his head. "And then the unthinkable happened...Momma and Rick...I never in a million years thought momma would cheat...he did...now anyone could but not only that...it was with Rick...again..."

Alex sighed stroking his back.
"I'm sorry honey... I know that pain trust me. Especially with your momma and Rick... I'm sorry you had to go through it... but baby, Rick would never let anyone else top him. I'm surprised he even let you. Not saying he doesn't love you ro something he was just always so... sensitive after Alan about his ass. He tried after football, got offered to be quarterback but he quit the team after the first game when everyone kept smacking his ass. He swore he'd never let someone top him. He Just loves you that much." He pecked his cheek.

Kevin nodded, pressing close to his father.
"I made Alan pay...." He nodded. "Not even Quincy went as far as to...you know. He came close several times.....I...Actually im not sure...he might have..."
Kevin didnt know, Quincy had done it with a dildo...But kev always thought it was his actual member.

"What Quincy did was still awful though." He noted, pecking his cheek.

"Daddy.....Rick wants to be pregnant....can I talk to you?" He asked softly, hugging Alex close.

"Of course you can sweety." Alex nodded.

"I dont want him to be....I....Daddy..." Kevin was already close to tears, they were in his voice as it cracked. "Im supposed to be the momma.....Me.....I had one baby...and he is gone....and now this?...I dont want it, I cant stand it...."

"Baby...why does it upset you?" He frowned

"Because, I just said....I....Im the momma. Me. I always said I would have the kids...Not my love...not Rick....its not the same....." He shook his head, "It hurts....:"

"Baby... it hurts Rick to see you hurt... he doesn't want you to go out again like you did before.."

"Well...having another baby would mean the world to me,....and now I cant because he is....I cant have a baby...Daddy...Zac is gone....Junior is gone.....my babies are gone and im always talking about wanting another...I cant have one but Rick can? Its not the same...Its not fair....I hate it."

"Baby it is fair." He ssighed. "I'm sorry you hate it but... he cant hurt you and I cant blame him... I dont want you gone either. THat was hell Kevin..."

"Daddy no....Im the momma....its not fucking fair!! Momma had teen million kids! so does Zac! Chris has two! Even Angel has one but I cant? Its not fair! I dont want Rick to be pregnant! I want to have the babies...."
He would not ever get over this...
He thought he could come to his father but no...now he knew when he was upset about this, he would have to deal alone.

Alex sighed and hugged him.
"Baby... having babies doesn't hurt Momma or Zac or Chris. It did hurt Angel but Gabriel doesn't care. Rick does care that it hurts you..."

"Does he not get that HE is hurting me daddy? Does he not see that I hurt worse longing to have a baby and have to deal with him being pregnant after wanting another for so long......Does he not get that? Or the fact that when he cheats I die a little inside? He doesnt care enough to see and do anything. He is making it all worse on me daddy.."

Alex sighed and simply held him He really had no clue what to say to fix this.