I Shouldn't...

"Miserable." Angel whimpered, pressing close to his baby.

"It'll be okay momma..." He sighed softly, pressing a kiss to his temple.

"What do I do....?" He asked softly to no one, pressing closer to his baby.

"I dont' know momma... have you talked to daddy yet?" He asked.

"No....H-He came and got Blaine and that was it."
Angel shook his head pitifully.

"Well... I don't know what to tell you momma but I'm right here for you..."

Angel was so happy he had given his son up. If not...there was no tellings how he would be right now.
"Th-Thank you baby."

"Of course momma... Love you." He kissed his cheek.

Angel stood up, kissing Cade's cheek.
How would Gabriel react....
"Im going to see what he would do if I moved out..."

"Alright momma... good luck with that. I'll be right here.." He nodded.

"Thank you..." He kissed Cade's cheek, standing on trembling legs and pushing forward, out of the home and to the one he shared with his husband.

The door was unlocked but Gabriel did not open it. He had not moved at all since he got to his home. He hadn't slept either. He'd simply held Blaine in his arms, staring at the young child,waiting for him to wake.

Angel opened the door, glancing at Gabriel and shaking his head. He went into the bedroom to pack his bags up.

"What are you doing?" Gabriel's voice was low, flat, monotone.

"Im leaving." Angel answered back in his quiet wavering voice.

A long pause.
"Okay..."
He deserved it.
He'd thought it over all night long while with Blaine. And he'd finally figured it out. He didn't want Gabriel...
The sex was absolutely amazing. Once in a lifetime sort of sex.... Just great.
And yet... It wasn't his best time. It hadn't even come close...
His best time was with Angel. The day he'd proposed.
Angel wasn't as tight.
Angel was scarred up, not as beautiful to most people as Gabriel was.
Angel was too small and weak to really pleasure Gabriel.
But.
Gabriel loved Angel with all of his heart.
He had fucked up ways of showing it but he fucking loved Angel Johnson... maybe McDaniels now.
Angel had just tried. He may not have succeeded in some of the things he tried but he'd tried...
And that and that alone made it Gabriel's best time.
His second best was some random time.
So was the third.
And the fourth.
That time with Gabriel McDaniels was probably one of the last.
And Gabriel had just realized this... just realized what a dumbass mistake he'd made.
But maybe it was for the best.
Angel could go to Brayden now.

Angel packed his things up, sitting them by the door. He came back, and stood there, aimlessly before gently lifting Blaine from Gabriel's arms, kissing his small cheek before sitting him back. He then knelt down, looking into Gabriel eyes.
Angel's big blue flooded eyes pleaded and begged, he didn't want to leave...He wanted Gabriel to stop him...Some way just stop him....
The voice's would have none of Angel stopping on his own...They had made sure they were leaving if the man wasnt stopping them.
And if he didnt....
In Angel's head, it was because now, Gabriel was single, Angel would be gone....
Perfect time for them to get back together.
He leaned down and kissed his husband, his tears cascading from his cheeks, over to Gabriel in a morbid goodbye over their dead baby.
Stop him....
Angel wished Gabriel would stop him....like any other lover would and beg him to stay....Other lovers like Rick and Alex....Who were in love with their husbands and didnt want whoever they cheated with.
But hey, Gabriel had always been better than Angel anyways.

Gabriel swallowed hard, looking up at Angel with puffy, bloodshot eyes.
"Angel..." He didn't even know where to start.

Angel sniffled, his one hand holding onto Gabriel's tight.
Mike and Kevin would have also left and not wanted to be stopped.
Angel....He didnt want to go...
"G-Gabriel.....D-Dont let me go......Pl-Please..."

"Angel..." Gabriel exited the room, sitting Blaine's dead body in his crib before walking back to Angel and holding him close.
"I'm sorry."

Angel had taken his ring off, he was twirling it in his hand.
"Whats wr-wrong with me?"

"Nothing Angel..." He shook his head slowly.

Angel shook his head, his small body shaking violently.
"What i-is wr-wrong with me?" Gabriel...I thought we were done...I know I cheated...I know it was bad but I thought we had passed it all? I-I thought we were d-done...I stopped everything with Br-Brayden....We are married Gabriel...You said you di-didnt want him anymore! Wh-Whats wrong with me? Why am I not good enough?!"

"You are Angel... I..." He drug a hand down his face. "I don't know why I did it... I thought I wanted him.... but I don't... I just really fucked up for no reason..."

Angel looked down, his shoulders shaking.
"I watched you...." He muttered softly.