I Shouldn't...

Kelton pulled the phone away a moment, coming back sounding normal, sweet like usual with Cade.
"Nothing babe, I had just stumped my toe, it was hurting. Something you need?"

"Okay baby... well I'm going to spend the night with momma... is that alright?"

Angel frowned, poking him.
"Your coming to live with me right Cade?"
Kevin swallowed, staking his time to get his voice right again.
"Thats fine baby, have fun. I love you okay? And you gotta cuddle me extra tomorrow.."

Cade put a finger to his lips, making the shh motion at Angel.
"Of course baby.. I love you too."

Angel nodded, sinking back and shhhshing himself like he did when he voices bothered him.
"Okay...'" That tiny waver was back but he hung up quickly.
Kelton sat back on his bed, hugging himself tightly and willing the tears away.
Crying was for pussies...Devins words echoed in his ears.

Cade frowned lightly as he considered going home but... his momma needed him.
"Momma.. I'm gonna need a few days to break it to Kelton."

Angel frowned deeply but he nodded, not even trying to argue with his baby.
"But you are coming home...?"

"Yes momma.." He noded slowly.

Angel grinned, stepping back to hug his baby.
Kelton was alone...Alone to try for the night and little did he know...He would go back to being alone everynight.

"But... sometimes... II may go spend the night with Kelton... he needs me too you know."

Angel peeked up at him, nodding slowly.
"Okay..........."
He dropped his head back and just leaned against his baby.

Cade sighed.
"I'm sorry momma... I love him just as much as you and daddy..."

Angel nodded, pressing closer.
If you asked Kelton though, he might be just as loved as Gabriel but he nor Gabriel held a candle to Angel in Cade's heart.

But he did...
Those three people..
Kelton, Gabriel and Angel were his everything and he loved them all the same.

Angel sighed softly, running his fingers through Cade's hair.
"I remember...You were small...Toddling..." Angel had been his everything, Cade told him so.

Cade nodded slowly, nuzzling his mother's neck.
"Momma... how is Blaine doing?"

"He is back, your father wont let me touch him since I killed him. I guess im a danger now." He sighed, taking Cade's hand. "Its fine I guess...Blaine is like....Your fathers project." Angel sat down.

"What do you mean project?" He raised an eyebrow.

"He is determined to raise this one right, I guess he feels bad about how he was to you...So he is like trying to be all good to Blaine and since I killed it im not allowed to touch it anymore..." Angel pulled Cade down beside him. "And thats okay...He can baby Blaine, might be good for him but I want my baby boy..." He kissed Cade's cheek.

Cade smiled softly and nodded.
"I'm glad for the kid..."

"Yeah, me too....But either way you will be my baby. Even if I had two and I cant have one of them ill always have my big man." Angel rested against Cade's chest. "Im tired of missing you all night...Especially when Blaine cries...I want my Cade here."

Cade smiled down at his mother.
"You love me..." It felt nice...

"Cade sweetheart....I love you more than ANYTHING....Your first before your father and Blaine even...I love Blaine but he is kind of your father kid more than mine it seems like. And I love you father but...I dreamed if having a baby since I was a baby and...Well...Your my Precious gift, and I do love you...I didnt make you leave because I was upset about your father being killed, which I was but baby it was more for your safety....Everything I do for you, is to help baby." Angel kissed Cade's temple.

"Deep down i know that momma... it just dont feel like it soemtimes..." He nodded.

Angel looked down, he knew he was not a good momma...
But he did love Cade...so much.
"Im sorry..."
He couldnt protect his baby when Cade needed it, couldnt comfort him like he should...
Horrible mother...