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"I understand baby. Just try to be here for the kids. I know it's hard, try to be strong sweety." Alex said softly.

"Im trying...." Mike sighed and kissed Alex's forehead. "And before you leave....I want you to make love to me." Mike whispered.

"I was hoping you asked." Alex smiled. "Didn't want to be accused of rape but I've missed you way too much." He chuckled, letting Mike know he was only joking he wouldn't make love to him without his permission.

Mike grinned. "Like I would deny you that. Well...not most of the time," He pecked Alex's nose.

"We don't gotta do it right now. I just wanna kiss you." Alex smiled, kissing up and down Mike's jaw.

"I wasn't saying we couldn't baby. I was just saying that some times I might not want to, I have felt really sick lately." Mike said as he enjoyed the feeling of Alex's mouth on him.

"I know, I was just sayin I don't think we should right now cause the kids are in the next room." Alex chuckled.

Mike made a noise that let Alex know he heard him. "Have you made any friends?"

"Not really. Pretty much keep to myself." Alex confessed, shrugging as if it wasn't a big deal. But he did get a bit lonely sometimes.

Mike frowned. "Baby, you need to have somebody. " Mike shook his head. "I dont want you alone out there."

Alex simply shrugged.
"S'alright."
Truth be told, most of the other men ignored or looked down on him for being gay.

Mike thought about it for a few moments before it actually hit him. "Is it.....because of me?"

"What do you mean sweety?" Alex questioned, he thought he knew what Mike meant but he wanted to make sure.

"Am.....Am I the reason your alone....because your married to another man...because of me?"

Alex shook his head.
"I guess... yeah. But it's not you. Even if I wasn't with you I'd have the same sexuality. Not your fault." Alex gave him a reassuring smile.

"H-How do they know?" Mike asked quietly, he did not like that Alex was out cast because of him.

"Pictures I have of us together. I get em out every night." Alex smiled slightly.

Mike smiled softly before his face light up. "Oh, yeah! I was going to send it to you before I heard you were coming home so I wanted to give it to you in person. Mike got up and then came back with a small photo. "This was my fist sonogram." Mike held out the picture of the baby in his stomach to Alex.

Alex beamed, taking the photo and examining it closely. But the smile faded.
"I missed your first sonogram." He frowned.

Mike sat beside him. "Yeah...im sorry, I couldn't reschedule it and believe me I tried. But your son video taped it for you." Mike leaned his head on Alex's shoulder. "We'll find out if its a boy or a girl here pretty soon....." He trailed off, Alex wouldn't be here for that either.

Alex sighed.
"I'm gonna miss everything." He pouted, rubbing Mike's stomach.

Mike looked down at his larger than normal belly. "Well....at least you wont have to put up with the morning sickness or the mood swings or the 'me being an insufferable bitch' part." Mike smiled at his husband.

"I love those parts. You're cute when you're moody." Alex smiled, kissing his forehead.

Mike sighed but smiled none the less. "I wish you could be here, your son will want to murder me soon." Mike paused. "He is recording all of it for you."

"I'll give Alex some tips on how to handle you." Alex smirked. "Can't wait to watch it all."