Fall For You

"Okay sweetness..." Mike was trying to let it go and just push it all away.

Drew sighed as he traced over the cross on his chest.
"This is going to get irritating." He sighed.

Mike hummed quietly to himself.
He would murder himself if he didnt find a way to relax soon, he was going insane.

Drew wanted to sleep but couldn't. It was still early plus he was far less calm on the inside.

"I need to be put in a mental asylum." Mike grumbled to himself as he held onto Drew tightly.

"Why you?" Drew asked, brow furrowing. If anyone should be put in a mental asylum it was him.

"Because im reaching a very bad point."
A breaking point.
"But you are not crazy."

"Am too. And what point? What can I do to help?" Drew asked.

Mike shook his head and kissed Drew's cheek.
"Your not crazy and you help me."

Drew sighed.
"Okay... whatever you say." He frowned.

"I will wait until your okay to have my mental break down in which I will be hospitalized because then Ill be a vegetable." Mike tried to laugh.

"Mikey, we need to do something... I can't take it if you have a mental breakdown."

"Honestly...I don't think it can be stopped. Im just so fucked up. Your okay now though so ill hold out a bit. Maybe it'll get better."

Drew sighed.
He still was worried and would continue to be worried until Mike was completely fine.

And the problem was Mike was not fine and he didnt think he would ever would be fine again. He was depressed, just tired of life in general, Drew could do better and now James was gone so he didnt need protection.

"Mike promise me sometihng." Drew looked up at his lover.

"Depends on the promise if I can." Mike hummed and waited for the promise.

"Never leave me..." Drew said softly. "Don't think I deserve better, I only want you."

"If I die I wouldn't be able to keep that promise but im alive and as long as I a, I want you with me."

"Okay well... don't die." Drew gave a small smile.

Mike wasn't smiling, he could die. He worked so much and he was depressed and just everything was killing him.

"Y-you're not going to die are you?" Drew stammered. Had he just made it through all this shit only to have Mike die?

"I don't know....I really dont know. Its weird, I might be, feels like I am but I sure as hell hope not." Mike said softly.

Drew's face fell, his heart sank. He closed his eyes and turned away. It would be all his fault. His fault for getting raped, his fautl for making Mike be the man, his fault for freaking out during the exorcism, his fault Mike died...

"Shhhhh Drew baby, I seem healthy don't I? Ill....I hope I'll....Just c'mere." He pulled Drew to his chest.
"Im here now and I dont wanna leave."