Listen To The Thunder

"Baby I didn't mean that!" Alex cried.

"How could you say that to me! Thats like telling telling momma your happy he was beaten and raped! At least he lived! I was killed and your happy!"

Alex gasped.
"Kevin the day your momma was raped and I lost you was possibly the worst day of my life!"

"The why did you say you were glad! You were glad I died happy some bastard killed me..."

"No I wasn't! I just wasnt thinking when I said that!" Alex sobbed.

"You cant say that shit! Daddy you said you were happy I was killed! Happy momma never had me!"

"Kevin I didn't mean it!" Alex sobbed loudly as he looked to his husband.

Mike took a deep breath and pushed Kevin to Alex's chest. Kevin clung to his father.
"You don't want me, you dont want!" Kevin sobbed into his fathers chest.

"Baby I do want you! I love you!" Alex exclaimed.

"No you dont! I your glad I was never born because you NEVER WANTED ME!" Mike stared at his baby in horror.

"Baby of course I wanted you!" Alex screamed through tears.

"YOU FUCKING SAID YOU WERE GLAD YOU DIDNT HAVE ME! YOU DIDNT WANT ME!" Kevin screamed back.

Alex sighed and stopped trying. His voice was getting hoarse from the screaming.

Mike walked over and pulled Kevin away. He held his baby tightly as Kevin sobbed into his chest.

Alx sighed, still crying heavily. He wiped at his eyes roughly.

"Oh Kevin baby...Its okay...."
"No Its not! You might love me but for some reason he cant! He wont ever love me like he does Alex Jr and especially not SYDNEY!"

"K-Kevin I..." Alex stammered. He wasn't sure how to make his son believe him.

Meanwhile back at Rick's place, they were making love. Sydney had wanted to but Rick knew nothing could compare to what he felt with Kevin... When he would open his eyes, he'd see Kevin's face, having to blink a few times before it turned back into Sydney's.

Kevin was heartbroken, not only because of his daddy, be cause of Rick. He had lost Rick to his sister. Mike had rushed past his husband to go and get Kevin taken care of. Mike finally left him alone and all he could really do is wish he was Sydney in a way. Sydney was his father favorite, Sydney had Rick....

Alex sighed, putting his head in his hands.

Sydney was content as she nuzzled Rick's chest. Rick was staring out into space, his eyes cold.
"Baby, is something wrong?" Sydney frowned.
"No... nothing... don't worry about it sweety..."

Mike went out to Alex and looked down at him, a frown adoring his face. "You have royally fucked up baby."

Kevin was sitting with his knees at his chest, only thinking of Rick and what he and Sydney were doing now, not thinking of what was going on inside him.

"I know..." Alex sighed, tears still rolling down his cheeks.

"He is right to an extent Alex, Sydney is your favorite but you still wouldn't have ever said that to Alex Jr, not even to Jessica." Mike frowned at his lover, lifting a hand to wipe the tears away with his callused thumbs.

"I... didn't mean it Mike. Not at all. I.. I don't know..." Alex frowned up at him.

"Alex...You dot know how much he looks up to you. When we were apart all he want was to see his daddy, to meet you, for you to approve of him.....Alex how do you manage to say that." Mike caressed h is cheek.

"I don't know Mike. I just wasn't thinking. I'd have never said that if I tok two seconds to think before I let the words come out of my big mouth." He groaned.