Somewhere With You

"Fine, you can talk to him." Alex sighed, looking at Miz .

Kevin smiled and went in for a hug but the Miz put out a hand to stop him.
"We can work up to hugging but for now don't...."
Kevin frowned and looked down before shaking it off and grinning again.
"So why does Daddy think your an evil prick?"
"Because I am and every time has talked to me I was pissed."
Kevin nodded with a smile.

Alex sighed and watched the two.
"i want Mike..." He frowned.

Miz sighed.
"You want him so bad you make him come back because he is refusing me." Miz said flatly.

"Well how do I make him come back.?" Alex frowned.

"Give him a reason that he HAS to be here or else you wait and he will come back when he is ready." Miz shrugged.

Alex began crying. Sobbing, his chest heaving, bawling his eyes out, more than he ever had.

The Miz's face was blank, Kevin immediately ran over to his father.
"Daddy whats wrong?!" Kevin hugged his father tightly.

Alex simply held his son as he cried. Mike would come out to comfrot him... right?

The Miz flinched at the site.
"What's wrong with you Alex?" The Miz stared, his body trembling.

Alex said nothing, only sobbing harder, his entire body shaking as he cried for everything that had ever happened to him.

The Miz cursed.
"Alex dont do that to him, please dont do this to him. You fucking know he cant sit here with you crying.

"Then h-he should come m-make me s-stop shouldn't h-he?" Alex sobbed

In the blink of an eye the cold eyes turned worried and loving as Mike scrambled off the bed and over to his husband, taking him in his arms.

Alex trembled in Mike's arms.
"M-mike?" He would wait until he was sure Mike was here to stay before trying to stop. But the tears were real now. He was letting everything out.

"Yeah baby, im here." Mike held him tightly and kissed the tears away, he pressed his lover to his chest.

"C-come lay with m-me." Alex cried softly as he pulled Mike to their bed.

Mike of coarse did just that. He laid down with Alex and once again pulled him close and pressed him to his chest.
"Shhhh sweet baby."

Aelx could not stop crying now though.
He cried for Chris, who had died alone because he was still in love with Alex.
He cried for his baby girl, Sydney, cause she was now a single mother and Alex was still happy for Kevin and Rick.
He cried for Lane, who had given up everything for Alex.
He cried for having to leave Lane.
He cried because he still loved Lane even though he wanted to hate him so much.
He cried because it would kill him to see Lane back with Sarah even though he had gone back to Mike.
He cried because he was such a damn baby.
He simply cried for everything shitty in his life.

Mike leaned against the head bored with Alex in his lap, his arms wrapped tightly around him. He hated how Alex's life was so fucked up. If not for him he would not have meet Lane and he might be with Chris. If not for him maybe he would be the mother of twins with Chris and he wouldn't have to deal with a husband that had three more kids then him. Maybe if Alex had never met Mike he would be happy.

"B-baby I love y-you." Alex sighed, tears rolling down his cheeks.

Mike was silent as he rocked Alex back and forth.
"Alex...Do you wanna go back to Lane....?"
Do you wanna leave me?

"B-baby no... I love you t-too much." Alex sobbed.
There was a part of him that wanted Lane. A small part. But there was a much larger part that knew it needed Mike. Couldn't survive without Mike.

Mike put his head down.
Alex still wanted Lane, he could see it...he could feel it.
And it fucking hurt, his chest just ached.

"Baby I-I'm serious... I w-won't lie to you. T-there's a part of m-me that misses h-him...."
Missed being bottom when they made love.
Missed that smile.
Missed Lane's calloused hands on him.
Missed that low, rumbling chuckle.
Missed the way he called him Boo...
Stop.
"But I n-need you so m-much. I can't l-leave you."