Somewhere With You

Mike looked away.
Lane was a far better lover, Lane was everything Alex needed.
Lane with the strong will.
Lane who never cried.
Lane who was so sweet but so firm.
Lane who told it like it was.
Lane who had stole his whole life away.
Lane who had stolen his reason to get up.
Lane who stole Alex.
Lane who had Alex's heart.
Lane who called his lover Boo.
Lane who topped.
Lane who never needed comfort.
Lane who used to be his best friend.
Lane Who was what Alex needed.
It was time Mike gave up.....

"M-Mikey please baby... I'm s-so sorry. D-don't be u-upset. I l-love you..."

"Alex....I think you need to go and find Lane. I think you need him and you will be better off. I will sit here and ill take it, Ill take being called a whore and ill take knowing you still love Lane but b baby something has got to give. I used to have your whole heart, now I dont and I hate to admit it but....Im not as strong as Lane, I cant take it, I cant take knowing how much you miss him, how much you miss his smile, his face, his voice, his touch, the way he called you boo or the way he made love to you.....I am not strong like that. The Miz will me over completely so I can deal and I dont want that."

"Baby I don't want to go find him.... I want you. I need you. Not him. I'm sorry. I'm trying not to miss him, I am. I love you..." Alex sighed softly.

Mike was silent.
"Alex I cant do this....if you keep it up I wont be me any more . Ill be the Miz and I wont ever be me again...."

"I don't want that baby... please just give me a bit. I'm so so sorry..." Alex trailed off.

"its not you cry, its you fucking still loving Lane.....Why cant you love me like I love you...." Mike shook the tears away before they could fall.

Alex stopped. Those words made his heart ache.
"M-Mike.... I'm s-sorry..."

"I know you are! I know you are but that does not change it. You love him! What if I still loved Daffy Like that? Or Quincy? What huh? It fucking tears me apart but I love you to damn much to tell you to go, to tell you how bad it hurts! I love you to damn much to ever even remotely think of anyone else like that!"

"I l-left him! I left him for Y-YOU! I'm trying! E-even though I love him I'm trying n-not to! D-does that mean n-nothing!?" Alex cried harder. For once it was him bawlign.

Mike shook his head and hugged Alex tighter,
"It means the world to me that your trying baby, it does."
It did but he still hurt. Alex had swore he was the only man he would ever love.
Sureeee.

"I'm s-so sorry!" Alex screamed, burying his head in Mike's chest.

"Shhhhh, There's nothing I could say to you, nothing I could ever do to make you see, what you mean to me. All the pain, the tears I cried, still you never said goodbye and now I know, how far you'd go. I know I let you down, but it's not like that now. This time I'll never let you go. I will be all that you want and get myself together, 'Cause you keep me from falling apart. All my life, I'll be with you forever, to get you through the day and make everything okay..."

Alex simply shook. He trembled. He bawled. He screamed. He sobbed. He felt like he was breaking blood vessels in his face from the screaming and sobbing.

Mike pushed him back and put a hand over his mouth.
"Alex baby, your hurting yourself. Take a deep breath, look at your red face. Sweetie your going to pass out." Mike cooed sweetly and rubbed his cold hands around Alex's face, stroking and caressing, dropping kisses, just trying to calm him.

"STOP BEIGN SO NICE!" Alex shouted, his words muffled by Mike's hand as his tears fell on it.

Mike got within three inches of Alex's face.
"You listen to me. You calm the fuck down. Im taking care of you but I wont let you hurt yourself like that. I know what it feels like, you will make yourself black out. Your sweet face is so fucking red and warm, you feel feverish. Calm down sweetie." Mike took his hand away to gently wipe the tears before pressing his cold hands to his face again, trying to sooth his lover.

"I've n-never cried this f-fucking much!" Alex sobbed. "I'm s-sorry. I'm a-awful... i don't d-deserve you!"

Mike smiled softly and tried to joke with it.
"Your right, you dont but you got me and your stuck we me." Mike cooed sweetly.

Alex simply shook his head, burying it in Mike's lap as he continued to bawl.

"Oh Alex baby," Mike carded his fingers though Alex's hair. "My poor, sweet baby, shhhhh "
Mike was too sweet to be hurt so much.

"S-stop. Just s-stop." Alex sniffled, clutching onto Mike's thighs.

"Alex sweetness, you know im not going to stop and let you cry alone without me loving you. " Mike rubbed Alex's sighs lightly before tracing the faded cross tattoo on his back.

"But i deserve to cry alone. I deserved to die alone like Chris did!"

"Alex Rilet you hush that up right god damn now! No one deserves that, especially not anyone as sweet and wonderful and amazing and brilliant and loving and special and precious as you! Alex no...." Mike rubbed his lover's back as he felt his abdomen becoming wet with his lovers tears.