Somewhere With You

"me too. Believe me, me too." He smiled widely. "I love that man so much..."

"I know. You two should really get your vows renewed or something. It would be cute!"

"I know we've talked about that. I want to..." Alex grinned.

"Awesomness! I would love to see that."
He was bouncing in his fathers lap like a giddy child.

"You're so adorable when hyper... which is like all the time." He laughed.

"Blame momma, he gave me coffee and a donuts and a waffle and syrup and it was yummy!" He announced happily.

"Where's my donut?!" Alex whined with a laugh.

"He made you a plate and even pouted when you never came down. He put it in the microwave for you though. Seeee he thinks about cha."

"Awww I'm speciallll!" He sang. "Well, I was thinking. Sorryyy."

Biddy giggled.
"It is fineeeee But he was fucking funny as hell, pouting like a girl when her boyfriend said he would call but never does."

"awwww." Alex giggled. "Poor Mikey. I'll come down soonnn."

'"Oh No! I love this, im telling you, that man fucking PRISSED his way across the kitchen like a moody chick."

Alex laughed.
"Well that's mikey for ya." He giggled softly.

"He is funny, its gotta be hell to fight with his moddy ass."
But it was.

"It really is." Alex sighed. "Trust me. IT IS HELLLLL." He laughed but he was dead serious.

"Hmmmm you get tired of him and his moody ass sometimes dont you?"
It was an innocent question.

"Never. I hate fighting with him. But I'm never tired of him." Alex shook his head.

"Awwwww daddy is in lovee!"
He was to fucking hyper, Higgy had to keep him from bouncing off the walls.

"Yes daddy is in love. Has been for almost ninety years." He grinned.

"But with momma the whole time? I dont know nothing but I hear the name Lane alot and I have no idea who he is and Momma wont tell meeeee...Opps....He said not to ask you either, sorry."

"Oh it's alright. It don't even do much anymore." He smiled softly. "If you want I can give you the whole story. Just don't mention it to your mom kay? I might tear up at parts but I'll deal."

Biddy nodded with a smile.
'Okay daddy, tell me about him and why Kevin hates him."

"Kev hates him too? Damn. I didn't know that. Well Lane was your momma's best friend growing up and most of, well all of his life. When your momma died it fucked me up. I wouldn't smile. Wouldn't laugh. I was pretty much emotionless for a good six months. I ran out of tears after the first week... Lane found me at your momma's grave and told me Mike told him to take care of me after he died. So he did just that. We got together. I fell hard and he made me feel like I never thought I would again... I was in love. And I forgot about all those sparks I felt with your momma. I made a mistake one night. A big one. I told Lane I loved him more than your mother. I really thought I did. But I didn't I'd just forgotten..." His eyes were a bit watery. "Your momma stopped visiting me after that.... apparently he lost it. His heart broke. All he did was cry... I don't know all of that but thats when everything with Quincy happened. I tried to go back to your momma a few times but I coudln't do it. I was too in love. Lane made me feel so happy. We rarely fought... I was bottom with him, the submissive one. I could cry without feeling bad for stressing him out. He was my rock. It was just nice to be able to be the comforted one instead of the one doing the comforting.... but then I realized I needed your mother more. I ended things with Lane... it was hard. We both bawled like babies. But I did it. For the longest time I was still in love with Lane.Any time his name was mentioned I'd start crying or I'd get this awful ache in my heart." He paused, yupp, his eyes were definitely teary... "Then, not really too long ago. A few years maybe. I got stuck alone with Lane. It was awful. I couldn't look at him without wanting to just go back to how it was. We kissed right as your momma walked in. He went insane, beat the fuck out of Lane. They both fought as I bawled my eyes out." He chuckled although it was not funny one bit. "Mike was so mad at me... I promised him it wouldn't happen again. He said if it did he wouldn't take me back. I've stuck to my word and now thinking of Lane doesn't do much to me."

"Okay....So you fell in love with this man....and you still loved him while you were with momma. You cheated on Momma and momma wigged out....So Momma kinda lost his bestfriend and ever ounce of trust in you huh? Thats pretty bad but you can't help who you love. I mean you might not love him anymore but you did, and I can understand that. I mean Im not someone who ever needs comfort, im fucking weird like that. I just never had anyone around to comfort me so I got where I just didnt need it anymore. It might be different but when you were with momma and still loved Lane you had to hate it and I hate that I love Higgy like I do because he is bipolar and he does hurt me but love is blind. You kissed Lane, you couldnt really help that daddy, the heart wants what they heart wants but hey, atleast now you dont seem to love him anymore. And you and momma haven't been fighting lately....Maybe momma can comfort you when you need it, I know he wont mind. Anyways I see what happened and I don't blame you., If anything im proud of you for being with momma now." He nodded with a wide grin, pecking his fathers cheek.

"Damn kid I love you." Alex shook his head smiling as he hugged Biddy tightly. "You're about the first person to understand me..."