Just A Number..

"I.....I was caught up in the moment Rick. Its special to me when you cum inside me....I wasn't even thinking...... And I just needed to see if you were okay."

"BAby... from now on I don't care, I'm wearing a condom or we won't make love. I can't chance you trying that shit again..." Rick sighed and kissed his cheek.

Kevin pulled away, popping the band so hard it broke after leaving a large whelp on his marred wrist.

"Kevin knock it off. You CANT get pregnant again. You just can't..."

"Shut up and leave me alone."
He pulled another band out of his pocket and put it on but he didn't pop it. He held onto his wrist, digging a nail into it.
He wanted a knife right damn now.

"No. Knock it off!" Rick grabbed his wrist.

Kevin popped his hand away.
"You don't touch me. Leave me the fuck alone before I go find me a knife."

"I'm your fiance! How am I supposed to not touch you! You are acting like a child Kevin."

"AND YOU ARE ACTING LIKE IT WOULD BE HELL FOR ME TO HAVE ANOTHER ONE FO YOUR FUCKING KIDS! Me having your kid is the only reason we got together! ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING!?" Kevin stood on his weak legs. He couldn't walk but due to his and Biddy's secret physical therapy he could stand if he was elevated enough.

"Kevin knock that shit off! That is not why and you need to fucking listen to me when I say that! It is because last time you had a child you were gone for three fucking months! You do not even know how that was for me! The hell that put me through! And apparently you dont give a fuck! It ain't just me you'd be leaving now! What about Zac?! Rick Jr?! Do we not fucking matter at all?!"

Kevin was shaking with rage and hurt, his cheeks red as he glared at Rick.
"DON'T FUCKING GIVE ME A GUILT TRIP RICK! FUCK THIS!! IM NOT FUCKING DOING THIS! LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE BEFORE I SAY SOMETHING I DONT MEAN, OR I WILL REGRET AND WE BOTH KNOW I WILL! He struggled to unlock his chair. He wound up breaking it and taking skin off his arm but he could care less. He knew he couldn't do this right now..He hadn't eaten. He just couldnt.

"What the fuck ever Kevin. You really don't even care." He laughed, bitterly, shaking his head incredulously. He stood and stormed right out the front door.

Kevin had nothing holding him back, he picked up one of his mothers kitchen knifes and sliced through his wrist. It was the deepest ever, his he hit the bone. He took it and just stabed at his wrist. He hadn't done this in forever and he shouldn't be doing it now. But he had not had his sugars, he was not thinking right.

Zac had woken up by the screaming.
"MOMMA!" He exclaimed, snatching the knife. "I can't cut you can't either damnit!"

"Go back to your room Zachary!" Kevin snatched it back, his eyes dark. "You have a reason not to do that anymore and Gidforbid you need to. I swear to God!"
He took off his enagment ring and just threw it.

Zac put the knife in his pocket.
"SO DO YOU MOMMA! You have Rick Jr and daddy and me! Are we not enough!? Knock that shit off! I Just stopped, be a good example on me!"

"Go to your room damnit!" Kevin hissed as Zac. He was never harsh but he was thinking about just.......He could take Rick Jr and he could move out. He and Rick could share Rick Jr and Zac until they fixed this.

"Damnit momma! Stop this shit! Daddy doesn't want you hurt! Is that so bad?! Is it bad enough to fucking break up over! You just threw your damn ring! You know what fuck off! I'm leaving to go see him!" Kevin knew what he meant but he didn't want to scream Quincy's name. "You two fucking break up! See if I give two shits!" He screamed

"Go on the Zac, not like Im stopping you!" Kevin rolled up the stairs and packed his bags. He picked up his baby and woke up Biddy. They were going to his house. Kevin picked up his ring and kissed it before laying it on the table with a note tha simply read "I love you"
He and Biddy walked out the door with Rick Jr.

Zac was shaking with anger and sobs as hot, angry tears poured down hsi cheeks. He hated fucking crying... he hadn't really gone to see Quincy even if it was nearing one. He looked down out his window as his mother left, taking his uncle and baby brother with him....
Of course. Out of his children Kevin took Rick... Rick was really his after all. Zac was stupid for thinking Kevin would've taken him.
He was full on bawling, strangled sobs escaping him as he held a pillow over his face to muffle the sound.

But that was not the case. Kevin came back only twenty minutes later.
"Zac....You wanna come with me? Or do you wanna stay here? Rick need one of you, If you wanna come I can let Rick Jr stay here." He rolled to stroke his sons hair.

Zac jumped as he looked at his mother from behind the pillow.
"Momma... you can't leave... No. Momma you guys are going to fight, you can't leave every time you do..." He sniffled, trying to calm himself.

"I...Im not going to be gone forever. I just need to be alone for a little while and he.....I dont know if he wants me here anymore. I was going to come wait until you got home and ask you to come them but...You never left I guess. Anyways....You wanna come with me?"

Zac sniffled again and dug the palms of his hands into his eyes as he nodded.

Kevin pulled Zac into his arms.
"You can come with me....And I will leave Rick Jr here. Rick will take care of him...."
He kissed Zac's temple.
"Pack a bag."