Just A Number..

"Zac, you can talk to me, I still love you, Im your mother and ill always be your mother. I cant trust you but you can still trust me." he sighed softly.

"But you don't trust me anymore... I hate it..." He frowned

"No I dont trust you anymore and you might never get my trsu back." He shook his head with a sigh.

Zac frowned deeply.
"Well I still love you and I'm so sorry momma...."

"I love you too baby." Kevin sighed and opened his arms for a hug.

Zac crawled into the open arms and hugged him close.
"I'm sorry...." He murmured again.

"You should be Zac." He sighed but hugged his baby anyways. No matter what he loved Zac.

"Please don't stay too mad at me momma... I'll do anything to try and get your trust back."

"Zac im more hurt than mad....And that might not ever happen Zac...This is bad..." He shook his head.

He frowned deeply.
"I just..." He wanted his mother....

"Zac you cant take this back..." He cradled Zac to his chest and kisses his forehead.

"I know and I... I want to take it back... I wouldn't tell Quincy or anything but I do. I put your health at risk... it hurt like fuck and... and I'm fourteen and pregnant." He sighed.

"You need to tell him Zac, let him know how your feeling about everything. He loves you and he wants to know everything...."

"I pretty much begged him to do it though.." Whore. "He didn't want to." Whore. "It's my own fault, why should I upset him?" WHORE. Everything about him just screamed it. He was a whore...

Kevin sighed softly, his hand stroking Zac's cheek.
He could read his baby like an open book.
"Your not a whore, you dont look or sound like one. Your in love with him and he is in love with you. You should have waited for many reasons but you didnt and considering how it was...Worried Quincy would cheat, I would have done the same IF I had not swore on my momma's health. Unlike you I fucking love my mother."

"Momma.... I love you too. So much..." He sighed. He was a bad child AND a whore...

Kevin sighed softly.
"Zac your a good boy, good son and NOT a whore."

"Can you like read my mind or something? Or am I talking outloud without realizing it?" Zac sighed.

"Im your mother, Zac I know you baby...." Kevin held him tightly.

"Then you know I'm terrified?" Zac sighed, glancing down at his stomach.

Kevin nodded.
"Im terrified to baby bot I think...Your memaw will take care of you."

"I know just... doesn't really make me feel much better." He kissed his mother's cheek. "Quincy even offered to get me an abortion but... I could never do that to my baby. I know how it feels.."

"Zac sweetness...If only you were mine...I would die AGAIN for you. And you can do that. Your dead, they wont be gone, you have them aborted and maybe we can get them back..."

"Momma I know but its just the point of it...." He sighed. "It'll be the same either way but still. I want it to know I won't kill it, even if it will already be dead... its complicated but I'm set on it."

"Okay but you need to make sure and tell me and Quincy everything...."
They had to protect him.