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"Well, okay but Mike told me in detail so listen carefully." Critter cleared his throat. "You left the room for Sydney and he told Mike, and I quote 'Listen Mike. I want Alex back. And you will soon learn that what Chris wants... Chris GETS. I WILL take him back. We are meant for each other. Deep down you know that right Mikey." Critter looked sick. "Okay, so by now he had pissed Mike off and Mike had him against the wall and threaten to kick his ass, so he taunted him, and provoked him so Mike tried to hit him. Chris caught it and then apparently slapped him across the face. Okay so you came back and Mike was about Miz now and was trying to kick his ass. So after that since Chris was innocent and Mike was the bad guy you got on to Mike. Said that when you huggedChris he was sending Mike looks over your shoulder. When you told him to step out he hugged Mike and hissed or whatever "You know he still loves me." So Miz told him to remember who was leaving the room. The he said 'Who's name was he moaning the other night? I seem to have forgotten.' Miz went blank so he rubbed it in and said 'that's what I thought." So then Miz hit him and he was in trouble again." Critter finished. "I was listening."

Alex sighed.
"I can't believe Chris would say stuff like that." He shook his head. "He was always so nice."

"To you, and around you. Why? Because he wants you. Im surprised he didn't taunt that Mike was dying so he would have you anyways in a couple week to a month." Critter snarled. "That would have been low. And damnit I wont sit here and let him die."

"He can't die Critter." Alex said, with a shaky breath. "He just can't."

Critter paused. He went and gathered a pen and piece of paper. "Here, write down what you like about him and what you hate about him. Don't ask why." He gave the pen and paper to Alex before sitting down and watching Cameron.

Alex raised an eyebrow but did as Critter asked.
"Things I Love:
His smile
His laugh
His eyes
The way his touch makes me feel
How he always feels the need to comfort me even when he needs it more.
How sensitive he is
How much he loves me"

"Things I Hate:
How sensitive he is
How he always feels the need to comfort me even when he needs it more.
How he thinks he loves me more than I love him
How he thinks that I'll be able to move on
How he thinks that he disgusts me now
How untrusting he is of me"

"Done." He said to Critter. "There's a lot more. But I can't possibly list them all."

He read the list over and clicked his tongue. A small smile dance on his lips. "I know you can't list them all. And how is he untrusting?" Critter asked.

"He thinks I really want Chris and doesn't believe me when I say I don't." Alex said.
"Now why did I have to do that?"

"Okay, I can believe you don't want Chris but then why have a wet dream about him?" Critter was confused by that.

"I know some people can control their dreams. But I'm not one of those people. My dreams usually revolve around whatever we were talking about before i fell asleep."

"And so Chris fucking you was going through your head?" He looked bothered. "Why not you making love to Mike or Mike making love to you?"

"That's not what I meant." Alex shook his head. "Mike and I were talking about how we wanted to make love but couldn't cause he's so fragile right now. Then, he said when he died maybe i should call up Chris. I guess my mind connected those two things subconsciously. The point is I don't want to do that with Chris. If I did, believe me I had the chance earlier. But I didn't."

Critter nodded. "Okay, I can see you point and his. One way or the other, out of all the list of things I hate, is there one that could get so bad that you would even want to leave him? If not whats the closest."

"No. None are even close. I can't think of anything in the entire world that would make me leave him. Unless he asked me to."

"Yeah but off this list, what would be the closest?" Critter had an idea but then he didn't but he wanted to know.

"I don't know. None." Alex repeated. He would hate himself if he left Mike because of any of the reasons on this list.

"Alex," Critter sighed. "Which one do you have the most? And what do you love the most?"

"Critter, I don't know." Alex groaned. "What is the point of this?"

"Is there anything any part of that man that you can honestly say you hate?" He asked, his eyes scanning the paper.

"Huh, guess not." Alex said, small smile appearing. "Did you know that I was gonna say this?"

"Yeah, I kinda did." He smiled at Alex, "I had Mike do this, it took more than two fucking page to get down what all he loved and he still wasn't finished but I had him stop. Then I told him to write down the things he hates. He just stared at me and he told me he couldn't. I asked why and he said because no matter what you do he will never hate you or anything about you."

Alex smiled.
"I really didn't know if we were gonna get along well... but I like you." He chuckled. "You know me better than I do."

"Yeah and why wouldn't we get along? " He raised an eye brow, he knew Alex was the jealous type but so was he. He understood.

"I didn't get along too well with Daffy. But I'm sure you've heard about that. I was sort of thinkin' you'd act the same way and I'd have to fight for him all over again."

"You know, I have heard about that but I don't think you would have lost him. He loves you way more than he ever loved Dustin. But I grew up with both of them so I knew them better then they knew then." He smiled. "And believe it or not, Dustin liked you, he said you would take care of Mike so anyone doing good by Mike was a good person to him."