Just A Number..

"Okay....But you tell me now because that is my brother and I dont know if daddy has talked with you but.....You will love him, take care of him.....And ill tell you, you had better do what you say you'll do. Im going to keep you in line....im going to be here on your back, making sure you and Kevin are doing good. Imma be on Kevin's ass too, your like my brother too..."

"I love him with all my heartBiddy. I do and I will take care of him just..."

"Just nothing, you and Kevin.....It seems bad now, but its not. You got it good with him and he has it god with you. I think you are both being childish. Take it from someone who don't have this. You hold Kevin when you go to sleep every night, Higgy tells me he hops I never wake up. Kevin gets to be held every night, protected. I get my ass beat every night. You got it good, I am not complaining, I dont want pitty or anything....Just look and see what you got. And Kevin too. If I was out like Kevin was, he would cheat on me and he is probably trying to make me like that.....Just do good bye him and he will do good by you."

"Oh Biddy bird..." Rick sighed and hugged him. "I know I do... I just, I'm sorry..."

"Its fine Rick, you will be fine and he will be fine." He hugged his brother in law tightly.

"I love you Biddy. I do..." Rick sighed. "I'm sorry for hitting you."

"Don't be, I guess I was going about it wrong. I love you too Rick." He gave a small smile.

"You sorta were. I knew I was gonna start bawling. And I didn't want you seeing me cry and you wouldnt' leave me alone... too late now." He sighed ad rubbed at his eyes. "But I still shouldn't have hit you."

"It was for Kevin....He told me to take care of you before he left....I couldnt leave you alone." He looked down.

"You're a good brother Biddy" Rick sighed. "I'm lucky to have you."

"Yup, not many people have someone as awesome as me." He winked with a soft grin at his Rick.

Rick chuckled.
"You're right Biddy. You are awesome." He pecked his cheek.

"Don't I know it."
If he was aweosme he would have someone to hold him and love him too.
Kevin was awesome. Momma was awesome. Rick was awesome. Daddy was awesome. Chris and Dustin, Zac and Quincy...

"Don't you forget it." Rick smiled softly and hugged him. "Alright I'm done being a girl now." He wiped his eyes

"Great. Going to bed?"
Higgy was sure to be back soon....

"Going to TRY to go to bed. No way I can sleep without Kevin to hold..."

Biddy gave a bitter sweet smile.
He wondered who Higgy was holding.....

"Would you lay with me? I'm not trying to cheat on Kev or anything I just... don't like sleeping alone."

"Yeah....I don't like sleeping alone either but im used to it. God only knows who Higgys holding right now." He took Rick's hand and pulled him into the room with Rick Jr.

Rick frowned and hugged him.
"You really need someone better than him." He sighed but laid down on the bed.

"No one else wants me. Im damaged goods...."
He laid his head on Rick's chest.

Rick held him close as they silently comforted each other, just by being there.

Biddy sighed, jumping a bit as he heard Higgy's voice in the living room...
And then another voice....A female voice.
He heard his bed room door shut.
Heard their bed hitting the wall.
Felt his heart crack some more.

"Oh Biddy..." Rick sighed, hurt shown in his eyes as he looked at Biddy. His sudden pang of hurt for his brother in law turned into anger. "Fucking asshole! Who the fuck does he think he is?! The nerve of that ass! I will fuck him up!"

Biddy shook his head.
"Not tonight Rick....You need to rest. You have beem everywhere today fighting with Kevin. Don't worry about Higgy and whoever he has in our bed." He gave a pained smile to his brother in law as he tried to block out the sound of his lover for five years fucking some whore in there bed.