Just A Number..

"In YOUR fucking bed! Just GOD WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM!?" Rick was not in the mood for Higgy's shit. "GODDAMNIT!"

Biddy sat up, a hand over his swollen eye as he looked around for a pillow or something to cover his head with.
He didn't feel good, he never felt good After having his ass beat but he never once complained, never had he cried to anyone, felt bad for himself, bitter because Kevin had what he didn't.
He was simply glad he had Rick with him or else he wouls have flown off the handle.

Rick sighed. HE wanted to go kill Higgy and the whore he was fucking for making his brother feel so awful but he couldn't leave Biddy. He pulled Biddy into a tight hug.
"Oh come here hun. Biddy bird... you can cry y'know..."

"I know im capable of it but....I refuse to do it. Everyone around he is always upset about something. Im the only one who ever smiles.....we need the smiles. No one has ever seen me cry and they are not about too. Ill just have to shake it off and smile like always. It don't matter anyways. She is just some whore...."
Biddy smiled into his shoulder, even though his heart was breaking and crying out.

Rick grabbed his chin and made him look into his eyes.
"Biddy you look here. Yeah, you keep this house balanced most of the time. But NO ONE can stay all happy 24/7. You need to cry too I know that. And if you don't want anyone seeing I won't tell. But we both need someone to hold right now. I'm here for you and I like thinking you are here for me when I need to cry. So if you need to let it all out now is the time."

Biddy sighed and simply hugged him.
"I dont think I can.....Its been years since I have cried. I am here for you Rick, I love you....But Im not....If I cry, I might not be able to stop. So im not going too...."

"Biddy we got all night for you to cry your little broken heart out." Rick caressed his cheek and hugged him even tighter.

"You make me sound so small and helpless....."
And he was, right now he was. It was dark and only Rick was here to see what lied behind the mask of smiles.
"Thank you......"
He was only going to get comfort like this when Kevin was gone...

"I'm here for you baby. Know that." Rick whispered softly as he rocked Biddy back and forth.

Biddy bit his lower lip, pressing his face to Rick's chest as Higgy moaned in pleasure.
"Hell yes girl, so much better than that little bitch of mine."
You could hear him....He wanted the house to know he didnt give a fuck about Biddy....

"Oh hun... can I please go kick his ass and throw that whore out by her hair?"

"No....."
If he kept it up Biddy would do it.
He heard them talking....
"No, it aint serious, he is nothing but a nice fuck. Im telling you he is a fucking whore. I have to beat his ass to keep him off me. Keep him in line because the little fuck face just wont stop. But i'll tell ya, he has the tightest ass in the world for such a fucking slut."

"Oh fuck no..." Rick shook his head, almost fuming. "Biddy, no. You just cannot go back to him again...."

Biddy frowned.
"Rick....Don't......."
He was a fucking slut? He MADE Higgy hit him?

"Don't you even hear... just god, I can't stand this shit Biddy. You are... amazing. You need to be fucking loved and it kills me that you don't think so."

"Rick.....Im nothing really. Amazing is what you and Kevin have. Im apparently a whore and a slut. Im damaged goods. No one wants that, its just...Im never going to be loved like you love Kevin, im going to get abused physically, emotionally, and verbally and im used to it....Im not worth the time of day apparently."
He sighed as Higgy started again.
"And he is ugly, his smile is so fucking just nasty, I wanna knock the fucking thing off his face. You would think with as many times as I have broken his jaw he wouldnt be able to smile."

"Biddy, you don't listen to a fucking word that comes out of that asshole's dirty lying fucking mouth. Your smile is beautiful. You are NOT a slut. You are perfect and if not for Kevin I would steal you from him. So you keep on fuckin smiling. You get through this now and one day some lucky guy is gonna sweep you off your feet. Just you wait Biddy."

Biddy felt his jaw, it was cracked as they spoke. It had been broken five times. The man bowed his head, any trace of a smile gone. It was weird too, Biddy was ALWAYS grinning, even when Higgy hit him he was still smiling sometimes.
Biddy was not the type to have a fit because Higgy called him ugly. With all the bruises he probably was.
"Rick.....Don't say that. I have always wanted someone like you....want you really but you and Kevin....damn that beautiful and I could NEVER come between a happy couple.....haveing a good relationship is precious. I wouldnt take it away from anyone even if it would mean I wouldn't have to deal with him anymore...."

"I know. Because you're so sweet Biddy. You couldn't purposely hurt someone you love like that. And I hate it but I coudln't leave Kevin. I love him too much. But Biddy, someday you're gonna find someone better. They'll love you like I love Kevin and you can look Higgy in the eye and tell him to get a new fuck toy."

"No.....I dont want ANYONE to fucking hurt like this...Not even that ass hole himself. Im not Kevin, I can and I will hurt someome one. But I love you and Kevin to much to break up your happiness."
A loud moan rang through the house.

Rick simply shook his head as he held Biddy tighter.
"Just trust me Biddy..."

"I trust ya Rick....I trust you eith alot of things but right now....this is not one of them."
He put on the trade mark grin.

"Well you should. Cause I am right and one day I will be able to look at you and your perfect man and say I told you so."

"Sure, Higgy might be confused when you do that but whatever floats your boat Rick."
Biddy sighed as Higgy screamed.
"Caitlyne!"

Rick growled as he stroked Biddy's hair.
"Fucking asshole..."