Can't Go On

"Oh... Angel I'm sorry..." He frowned, wanting to hug his son but he didn't dare.

"Yeah......But im used to it Zac so...." He shrugged, but really it had fucked everything up for him.

"I can tell that hurt you though babe... and I know Brayden is sorry..."

"Yeah, im sure he is. Like I matter enough for him to give a fuck that he screwed all the work I put into letting him touch me....You dont know how hard that is." He leaned against the couch.

"He talks to me about it... he misses you." Zac nodded.

"He sure acts like it dont he?" Angel didnt believe that for one second.

"He does. You just never see it cause you won't speak to him..."

"Hell no I wont. He can fuck off...."
He had known better....Angel was so fragile....

Zac frowned.
"So you don't care if he'd get back with Higgy?" He asked.

"Sure I will but an abusive ass hole is better than a mentally unstable, voice hearing, brother he never knew and wont ever know now." He looked away.

"Baby... he doesn't care that you're... mentally unstable... he loves you.."

Angel gave a hollow laugh.
"Sure he does!! Thats why you brought that kid over here and made Quincy cry! Love! Thats why he wouldnt let you keep it here! Love!! Love is fucking retarded."

"Angel... love is retarded I guess. It sucks ass. Sometimes I wish I didn't love anyone. Cause love hurts. But love is... wonderful if you give it a chance. I sound really stupid and cliche but love is amazing.."

"Love is something I never had, and never will have and something I dont want....."
But he did miss Brayden....

"Someday you'll find it... and you'll be so happy you did...." Zac nodded.

Angel looked down, his hair falling into his face.
No one would ever love someone like him.

But someone already did.. Brayden was in love with him...

And Brayden was doing an awesome job of showing that.

Brayden missed Angel like crazy... he wanted him...

Riley watched the two carefully, noticed things. He plopped down beside Brayden and smiled.
"Whats up?"

"Not much Ri." Brayden shrugged. He just wasn't the same anymore... always quiet, sometimes he just wouldn't come out of his room until someone made him.

Riley poked him with a small frown.
"Whats been up with you lately?"

"Nothing Ri..." Brayden shook his head with a sigh as he looked at his brother with empty eyes.

"Brayden come on, the normal you would be picking on the insane kid right now..." He threw an arm around his brother.

"Who are you talking about?" Brayden frowned. If he'd meant Angel, that could've gotten him punched in the mouth.