Invisible...Am I?

"But you did leave Rick....you were gone and me and momma were with Kendrick...."

"No...Daddy It hurt us all but you fucking deserved to be happy and if Lane makes you happy then so be it, fuck what we thing....Momma wanted you to be happy.... I want you to be happy....Even Kevin wants your happiness, he is just too much of a bitch to show it."

"But I'm not going to leave and get with someone else Kevin." Rick sighed.

"But baby..." Alex sighed. "Thank you for not hating me..." He kissed Biddy's temple.

"Im sorry Rick....Its just after watching momma and daddy you never know whats going to happen..." He was scared...

"No one here hates you...Look around....If for nothing else they love you for momma because he cant anymore." Biddy pecked his cheek.

"Yeah we do. Because I'm not your dad and you aren't momma... we're two completely different people. We'll make it."

"Baby... I'm sure at least three people here hate my guts." Alex sighed

"But momma and daddy...they were love and momma is gone and daddy left and its all so fucked up!!"


Biddy shook his head.
"Like who daddy?"

"Baby you're daddy was gonna come back... but you're pushing him away now. You're gonna make him go to Lane.."

"I dunno specifics just.. I'm an asshole to everyone." He sighed.

"But Rick he....He killed momma." Kevin looked like a child....So hurt....so helpless and lost.

"Daddy its all fine and we love you....Today is about momma...and loving him and missing him and loving who he loved which is you."

"Lane did, not your daddy. Daddy's hurting to, don't yell at him, love him. Love him because momma can't anymore..."

"okay Biddy bird... I loev you." Alex sighed.

"But when he could he wouldnt let momma love him....He left him Rick....You didnt have to watch what it did to momma...." Kevin whimpered.


"I love you too daddy." Biddy rested his head on Alex's chest.

Rick sighed and simply hugged Kevin close, rubbing his back.

"So... Biddy bird how are you taking this all?" He sighed.

Kevin stood and took his hand.
"Ready to g-go home....?"

"Worse than I seem to be. I want cry like you guys but....I don't cry and momma loved my smile so much. Im smiling all for him." He nodded.

"Sure baby." Rick sighed and nodded, kissing his cheek. He walked over to Chris, hugging him. Chris kissed his temple.
"It'll be alright someday Rick..."
"It won't but okay..." He walked off with KEvin..

"Baby.. thank you. I'm sure your momma would be happy you're smiling..."

Kevin held his hand tight. Stepping back into that house was weird. It was just as his mother had left it the day Alex had left. Biddy hadnt gotten around to burning it and they were glad he hadn't...this was their momma's home.

"Momma would be happy that you cared enough to come say goodbye daddy." Biddy sighed. "Can I stay with you tonight?"

"I don't really know where I'm gonna stay tonight Biddy bird... I don't want to see Lane and Kevin is still pissed at me." He sighed, taking his son's hand.

"Daddy....Me, You, And Jayden, And Blake, And Austin, And Kevin, And Rick need each other right now so we are going to go to momma's home and we are staying there.?" Biddy nodded to himself.

"Okay baby I'd like that." He nodded, looking down as a teary eyed Jayden tugged on his pant leg.

Biddy felt horrible for him.... He had lost his mother so young.....And Mike had loved Jayden just as much as his other babies. At first he didnt want another kid but he sure as hell loved him.

"Daddy... I want mwomma..." Jayden sniffled. Alex frowned and lifted his baby.
"I want momma too sweetness."

Biddy looked at the casket.
"Did he get to say goodbye to him?"

"Mhm." Alex nodded. "I let him kiss his cheek and say buh bye..." Alex kissed his son's temple.

Biddy gently took Jayden from Alex and held him.
"It will be okay little guy, momma loved you too." His mother loved everyone so much.

Jayden hugged his brother tightly.
"But I mish him...."

Biddy nodded, hugging him closer.
"I miss him to Jay........"
Mike had always called him Jay....

Jayden wailed as he clung onto Biddy tighter, bawling into his shoulder.

Biddy held him close, taking his fathers hand and leading them out, stopping one more time to kiss his mothers nose.
"Bye momma....Sleep well..."