Invisible...Am I?

Biddy leaned in to kiss him, determined to get noticed today.
Today was special,....

And Blake still did nothing. He didn't push Biddy away, nor did he kiss him back. He just sat there.

Biddy pulled back, grinning through the pain.
He reached to the side of the couch and picked up some of his bags.
"I got you some things. " He pushed a lock of hair behind his head.
He had jewelry, some clothes, a framed picture of them together. First thing he showed was the clothes. Biddy had gotten his own job to pay for all this. He had his lover three new shirts, four pairs of jenes, one pair of shorts, a pack of boxers, and two new hoddies.

Blake chewed his lower lip. He couldn't do this.. Biddy was being so sweet....

He folded the clothes, his head down as he laid them aside and pulled out a silver chain necklace, a pendant on it that read.
"Blake."
He smiled and head it out to him, letting it swing in front of his face.
"I thought it fit you...."

And with that, Blake stood, walking out of the room without a word.

Biddy stared after him, sitting there alone in the living room.
Alone.....
He made no move to stop the tears that finally welled up in his eyes.
It was their anniversary.....
The tears slowly rolled down his cheeks, mocking him.
He gave a small sob as he picked up the last thing he had gotten, a framed picture of him and Blake, professionally done. He was on Blake's lap, grinning as always while Blake kissed his neck.
He threw it at the wall as hard as he could, ignoring the blood dripping from his cut hand and the glass that had shattered against the wall much like Blake ignored him.

Blake heard the shatter and immediately he ran out. He took in the scene and he saw the tears rolling down Biddy's cheeks. He gasped and ran over to him.
"OH god... you weren't supposed to cry... oh..." He pulled him into his arms.

Biddy pushed him away, roughly wiping at his tears but they came harder, faster, hurting him....
"O-Oh, your talking to me n-now?"

"I'm so sorry... I just... oh god I'm sorry." He kissed away tears.

Biddy shoved him away again.
"Stop it!!! If you wont fucking talk to me and love me normally then you sure as hell don;t get to hold me while I cry!!"

"I didn't mean to make you cry! I'm sorry!" Blake's eyes were watering as he watched Biddy cry. What had he done....?

"Well you fucking did!!! I hope your happy!!! Im a fucking stranger in OUR HOME..." He shook his head. "No...YOUR home....Im sorry! And you fucking got my child hating me to? What in the fuck is wrong with you!!"

"I.. I... I don't know." He began to cry. Rick was better than him.. Higgy was beter than him. He was scum... he didn't deserve Biddy.

'I would rather have you fucking hit me rather than ignore me like this!! I can't take it Blake!!! I am trying so hard!! I can't!!!: He sobbed into his hands.

"Oh god... baby... I'm..." Sorry wasn't even good enough.... "I'm more than sorry... if theres anything i can do to make you not hate me... I...."

"You know! Higgy NEVER made me cry like this! Only you and fucking Rick!! Why can't you just fucking pop me a few times when your mad huh? You can beat my ass rather than ignore me, and ignore me until I feel like im at a breaking point? Until I have NO ONE to turn to who can help me? Why are you doing this to me god damnit!!"

"I-I... Baby... I... I'm sorry." Blake sobbed. "You deserve better..."

"No! I had the perfect life for a few months....E-Everything I had ever wanted....A-And you fucking ended it like it was nothing!! God must hate me because I can't just be happy!! Either Higgy is beating me, My real father is beating and bad mouthing me. Rick is being a fucking BITCH to me or your ignoring me!! My daddy walked out on my family! My baby doesn't not belong to the man I love!! I was alone MY WHOLE LIFE and in alone NOW!!"

"NO... baby.. no... youre never alone." He shook his head. "I... if you would've came to me, and told me I was seriously hurting you... or you needed to talk to me... I would've given in.. just god... im sorry.."

"No! You should know Blake! You always know! You just didn't give a flying fuck what you were doing to me!!! Just because I smile does not mean im happy or okay! I smile so you and that baby wont see me hurt!!! I can't TALK to you! You wont fucking listen! You act like im not here!! I-I dont even know what I did that was so w-wrong!!! "

"I just.... baby... I love you and I understand if you want to leave me now... I just... I'm sorry." He cried.

'Wh-WHy could you have loved be fore you broke me? You know I hate crying like a fucking baby!!" Her was in pain.........

"I didnt' mean to mkae you cry... I'm so sorry." He cried.

Biddy looked away, wiping his eyes.He had never hurt this bad....But atleast Blake was talking to him