Listen To The Thunder

"It ain't good to keep shit bottled inside like that." Rick sighed.

Mike kissed Rick's forehead.
"Alex would be proud of you....trying to help me like this."

"I know he would. He'd be doing the exact same thing if he were awake."

"No, I think he is getting tired of always having to deal with me..." Mike rested his head on Rick's shoulder.

"Never. Trust me." Rick said softlty, rubbing Mike's back.

"I do trust you but im hurting him, he is so good but its like he is not allowed to hurt too...Im not sure what to do with him."

"He feels like he isn't. He knows you're so sttressed 24/7 he doesn't want to give you anything else to worry about."

"And I fucking hate it! He is hurting himself worse, im stressed yes but damnit he needs to stop that...im his husband...he needs to let me help him too if I can. But no, I just make it worse!"

"Mike calm down hun." He rubbed Mike's hair.

"Im sorry....Its just Alex...I...Im scared...." He swallowed and hugged Rick tightly.

"What are you scared of mikey?" Rikc asked softly, hugging Mike.

"Him...i-im scared of losing him again f-for good this time! Im scared of him changing, im scared of losing my Alex.....im just S-Scared."

"Baby, he'll never leave you again. Trust me. He regrets it so so so so so much. You'll never know how much he wishes he never even met Lane..."

"B-But he did and he knows what its like to be taken care o-of, Lane was so fucking good to him..."

"He was. I won't lie. But Alex chose you Mike. Be happy..."

"I can't because im hurting him! You don't know what it means to me when he is hurting." Mike whimpered. 'I dont know what to do.."

"Mike you aren't hurting him hun..." Rick cooed sweetly.

Mike hiccuped and pulled back, kissing Rick's cheek before putting on a coat.
He needed to be alone.

"Mike where are you going? I'm in charge of you so it's my fault if something happens to you."

"Why are you in charge of me? Im the momma." Mike cocked his head to the side.

"Alex put me in charge of watching you. He doesn't want you getting hurt."

"Imma go talk to Dustin, he wont be busy and you tell me before you do anything rash."

"I'm coming with." Rick said firmly. "Alex might not completely hate Dustin anymore but he don't trust him 100% either"

"Oh no, your staying here to take care of Kevin and to make sure Alex is okay. Im a big boy, im fine."

"Not a chance Mike." Rick slipped on his jacket. "Kev is a big boy too. And Alex will take care of Kevin if anything happens here."