Can't Go On

Zac smiled softly as he walked over and hugged his mother.
"Hey momma..."

Kevin turned over, his back pressed to Rick's while he pulled Zac to his chest.
"Hey baby. Jude is fine here if you wanna leave him."

"Don't want to, I got to. So thanks for keeping him momma." He smiled softly. Rick grumbled sleepily and nuzzled Kevin's hair, tightening his arms around his waist.

Kevin shivered, pressing back and giggling at his lover.
"Well, I want another baby, you know that...." He rested a hand over Rick's arms that were snaked around his waist.

"I know you do momma..." Zac nodded.
This was going to be hard... what if Jude started thinking of Kevin or someone else in the house as momma? Called them momma instead of Zac? Zac would hate it....

But it was only fair. Kevin was going to be momma. He would mother Jude like he did Zac when he first came. Kevin might not have been a good lover but he was a great momma and everyone knew that.

"Would you happen to want an almost two hundred year old baby?" Zac grumbled. Quincy wasn't really being a baby, but Zac was pissed and hurt... mostly hurt.

"Zac, he has had me. He knows he can do what he wants with me....Rick and Alex...could never stop him. I dream of it every night almost....But he is better now so ill take him." Kevin laughed lightly.
That and Rick raping him.

Zac sighed.
"You know I love him.. he's just... on my nerves at the moment. Which is why I'm here." He cuddled closer to his mother.

"But the love is always there,. I have been so mad at your daddy I wanted to choke him but I still love him...Always will,." He stroked Rick's hand.

"Same here momma." He sighed but nodded. "Just... if he'd sit me down and tell me it was hurting him and he couldn't deal with Jude. Fine, I wouldn't like it but... I'd deal with just visiting all the time... but no, he fucking screams at me and tells me if he sees Jude he'll break his neck..." Zac paused, growled and shook his head. "I know he's not the type of guy to openly share feelings and shit, neither am I really but come on..." He sighed

"Zac.....Quincy cant tell you when he is hurting....It....to him it doesnt work like that. He cant hurt....He is not supposed too."

"So he hurts me instead. Just wonderful." Zac grumbled. "Sorry. Imma shut up now." He sighed.

"You know....Rick hurts me and doesnt mean to and when he does it I can just....Its okay because your father is so sweet to me.....He never means to hurt me....Quincy dont mean it..." Kevin thought about it, He had emotional and physical scars from Rick.

"I know he doesnt but... how can he not know he's hurting me? He acts like I'm so horrible for wanting a kid that isn't his... its MINE too... It was in my stomach... its my baby..." Zac sighed.

"But you had it while with him. It means alot to him. Like it would to your father if anyone else touched me."

"He left me alone... he willingly fucked Jennifer when we were apart. I unwillingly was fucked by Mark when we were apart. It wasn't my fault I got pregnant... and it isn't Jude's fault his biological father is an asshole..."

"Zac, That women is scary, she MADE him do that and dont say she cant, she is just that scary.

Zac gave him a look that said "puh-lease"
"WHatever you say momma. He told me. She threatened to hurt me unless she did. The bitch tries to lay a fuckin hand on me and I can protect myself."

"No you cant. He knows, I know, everyone knows." he rolled his shouldera, pressing back to his lover.

"Just tell me you think he's right and I should abandon my child momma. Just say it instead of nicely disagreeing with everything i say." Zac rolled over, facing away from his mother.

Kevin frowned.
"Dont get smart with me Zac. I know Quincy, BETTER than you do. I am trying to help you because that man is different than your father and grandfather. You might have problems but you will not be snapping at me."
Kevin "humped." And turned over, cuddling to Rick.

Zac sighed, stood and walked back over to the bed with Jr and Jude.

Kevin grumbled and cuddled closer to Rick. Zac as being a fucking brat in his opinion.

Zac knelt down and kissed Jr's forehead, then Jude's.
"Love you." He whispered. "momma I love you too. Tell daddy I love him too when he wakes up... Bye." He walked out the door