I Dream Of Death

"well if neither of them will talk to me again why the fuck couldn't you let me bleed. Maybe somehow I could've died again.." Alex sighed, resting his head on Sarah's shoulder.

"You wouldnt have and I dont want you to me in pain and neither do they."

"Well I'd be in pain whether you left me there or not. I'm always in pain..."

"Alex, is there anything anyone can do to help that does not involve self mutalation."

"Nope. Not unless there is a way to make me choose without hurting anyone."

"Well, you cant hurt them much more than you already have so might as well just chose now."

"What's the point in choosing if neither of them will talk to me again?"

"Alex, they will too. They just wont talk to anyone else so just chose now and get it over with."

"I don't know who to fucking pick. I hate this!" Alex screamed, hurting his throat which had a long jagged cut across the center.

"Alex sweet heart you have had a long time to chose. You now have to make the final decision."

"MIKE! There, I chose! Happy?!" Alex wasn't sure this was the right decision but he was so sick and tired of being pressured.

"Alex, dont say that unless you mean it, you need to think and the next thing you say is your final decision.

"What if I do mean it? Lane has you if he needs someone. Mike has no one but Daffy. And well I can't let that happen again."

"Alex, ignore that. who does ALEX want?" She asked, her eyes soft.

"Alex wants LANE!" Alex let out a heartbreaking sob. "I need him to hold me n-now! He's my r-rock! But I p-promised." He shook his head. "I promised I wouldn't leave Mike again. This isn't about Alex anymore."

Sarah nodded.
"Alex, you wont be happy and neither will Mike if you stay with him because you promised. You chose Lane, Mike will just have to deal with that."

"Sarah! You don't understand! I can't do that to him! Not again! He didn't want to stay, I finally had him convinced I wouldn't hurt him again! It's not about what I want! What I want doesn't fucking matter! I can't do that to him!" Alex's large body wracked with loud sobs.

"Alex, if will hurt worse if he knows your with him not because you love him more, not because you want him, but because you feel obliged. It would eat him up. Now that is what you cant do to him."

"You don't get it." Alex sighed, wiping away tears as he stood. It hurt to walk. He limped outside.

"Alex!"
She got up and followed him outside.
"Get your ass in the bad right now!"

"N-no. I'm going to tell Mike I choose h-him." Alex muttered, hissing in pain as he collapsed to the ground.

"No, im going to tell Lane you chose him and then Im going to talk to Mike." She struggled to pick him up.
"Your going to bed."

"NO! Sarah do not!" Alex said firmly. She was struggling enough to lift him. One single squirm and he was back on the ground, crawling towards Daffy and Quintion's house.

She growled and ran ahead, bringing Quinton back with her and with a sad sigh he carried Alex back to bed.

"Quinton please. I know I don't know you well but stop Sarah. Don't let her go tell them what I think she's going to tell them. Please, I'm begging you."