I Dream Of Death

"If it were up to me you know I would have him with us instead but its not my call and you cant take it so there is nothing we ca do for him...."

"Don't do that to me damnit." Alex frowned, sniffling.

"Im not doing it intentionally, I just.....I dont want him with Daffy I want him here...with us so we can protect him..."

"I do too. But I can't do all three of us. You know that..."

"I know....But I don't see why. I can take it, Mike can take it. I promise not to kiss him anymore...."

"Lane... please. Don't make me feel even worse about this."

"Im not trying too, I just want him back...."
Lane lowered his head.
"Before you I was the one who took care of him, I dont like seeing that....."

"And you think I do?" Alex snapped.

"Well hell your the one with the problem. You cant have him over here."

"Fuck you." Alex muttered, burying his face in the pillow.

"You know what Alex, you cant do that. That is not fair, you know your not being fair to either of us. You dont want us both, you got me and your pissed because Mike is being miss treated."
Lane was not afraid to point out the truth, he could be harsh yet so loving at the same time.

"And you're trying to make me feel guilty! I already feel bad enough ass!"

"No im not and you know that, Im pointing out what every one else is afraid to. You have no right to get upset with me.

"I do too." Alex pouted, kicking his legs childishly.

"Tell me what I have done that was wrong? Have I done anything wrong?"

"You're just making me feel guilty. I can't help that I'm a one man kind of guy. Would you rather me have picked Mike over you?" Alex grumbled.

Lane sighed and got up, he couldn't deal with a childish Alex at this moment.

"Exactly." Alex grumbled. He didn't want to be alone but that was what he got for being childish.

Lane went and sat down in the kitchen, to his surprise Mike was still there but Dustin was gone. Lane smiled softly and pulled Mike to his chest, he wanted to protect the smaller man...

Alex couldn't go out there and face Daffy again. He couldn't take anymore.

Sarah got up and went into the bed room. She sat beside Alex and stroked his hair.
"Dustin is gone.....Mike is here for a little bit if you want to come visit."

"A-alright... Sarah I don't know if I can handle it." Alex sighed.

She pulled Alex's head into her lap.
"I know....Its hard for me to handle too....But I don't know how long it will be until I see him again so I have to love him while I can."

Alex nodded.
"I don't know if I should do that. Or if seeing him will make the pain triple again..."

She nodded.
"Im sorry you know, for being such a bitch? I knew you would pick Lane...I was trying to make it stop but I couldn't...no one could."
She kissed his cheek.
"You don't have to come..."