I Dream Of Death

"He's killing me..." Alex whispered back. Was this how Mike felt 24/7?

Lane sighed.
"I know, I guess you feel like he has been feeling for God knows how long. But its worse for him. You love me, you in love with me. He loves Quincy but he is not in love with him. No one can take your place."

Alex couldn't imagine feeling worse than he did watching Quincy with Mike. But he did know it had to be worse for Mike.

Quincy rested his fore head against Mike's as there song came on. His kissed Mike softly, holding him close as he sung the song as it played in Mike's ear.

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you,holding my breath,
For once in my life,I'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,letting you inside.

Feeling alive all over again,
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love, she says
For the first time
Maybe I'm wrong,
But I'm feeling right where I belong
With you tonight
Like being in love
To feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you,
Holding my breath,
For once in my life
I'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,
Letting you inside.

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she says, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

"Going to the bathroom." Alex muttered to his husband as he stormed off. He knew he had no right to be angry but he needed to get away from it all before he lost his cool.

Lane sighed and let Alex go. The food was ready and Sarah sent Daffy of all people to tell Alex the food was ready.
He knocked on the bathroom door.
"The food is ready!"

Alex opened the door a crack and stuck his tearstreaked face out.
"Be there in a sec."

Daffy put a hand on the door, his eyes brows raised.
"Damn Alex, whats wrong wrong with you?"
He had a small idea.

"You think I'm going to open up to you of all people?" Alex said. The words were meant to be rude but his tone of voice said otherwise. He didn't have the energy or the will to be pissed right now or argue. He sighed.
"What I meant was... do you honestly care?"

"You know, its time we had this conversation."
He leaned against the door frame.
"OKay me and you did not like each other, I knew you would leave Mike and hurt him so I automatically hated you. Now when I died I guess I went crazy, I was not me, I was not in my right mind because Dustin McDaniels would never hurt Mike or be so cruel in his right mind. Quinton made me see what I had become and Im better now. Lane was one of my bestfriends, he loves you and so does Mike. I do care, we are not friends but we can be."

"Well... I'll never be able to completely forgive you for hurting Mike like that but hating you takes too much energy." Alex sighed. "So if you really care, I can't take seeing Mike with anyone else. It hurts. I know I have no right to be upset cause that's what I'm doing to him with Lane but that doesn't change anything." Alex looked away.

"I knew that was the problem. Alex, I know you hate it but do you want him to be alone forever? He's not even in love with Quincy, he is still so helplessly in love with you its ridiculous, but he is. Now he loves Quincy but not like he loves you. Its worse on Mike because you left him for Lane, Mike had no choice."
Daffy tentatively pulled Alex into a hug. It was...weird.

"Well, this is..." Alex searched for the right word. "Nice?" He laughed awkwardly, finding himself more comfortable in Daffy's arms then he thought he would be.

"Nice, weird, different, not that bad."
Daffy shrugged as he held the man he had despised for so many years.

Alex nodded.
"All of the above." He smirked not sure what to do next. He just stayed awkwardly still wondering if he was supposed to wait for Daffy to let go first.

Daffy finally let go and then busted out laughing, a grin controlling his features.

Alex quickly found out that Daffy's laugh was contagious. He was practically in hysterics as they walked back out to the table.

Lane, Sarah, Quinton and Mike were all scared to fucking death as the two men who hated each other more than anything came to the table laughing. Lane put a hand to Alex's fore head to see if he was running a fever while Quinton flicked Daffy's arm and asked what in the hell he had done. Mike hid his head in Quincy's chest. Sarah just sat there, wondering if hell had just frozen over.

Alex simply smiled at his husband.
"What?" He said to everyone at the table. "Can't two men get along?" He smirked, although he knew why everyone was so shocked. He would have had the same reaction if someone told him this would happen an hour ago.

Lane glared at Daffy.
"Where in the hell is my real husband?"

"Will everyone chill?" Alex chuckled. "Arew we not allowed to forgive and forget?"

Lane muttered unbelieving words under his breath. Quincy nibbled on Mike's ear as he whispered.

Alex's bottom lip jutted out as he rested his head on Lane's shoulder.
"What's the matter?"

"Nothing Boo."
He kissed Alex's cheek as Mike made a small noise as Quincy kissed the back of his neck.

"I'm sick of hating him. That's all. He apologized and everything." Alex laughed. "We even hugged."